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Seleena's Blog (the most recent entries are at the top) |
| December 31, 2008 |
Well, another year is drawing to a close, and from everyone here at
seleenak.com (just kidding! there's only me here) I'd like to wish
you all the best for the coming year. May happiness and prosperity be with you each and every day! *kisses* Seleena |
| December 24, 2008 |
I'd like to take this opportunity to wish everyone a very Merry
Christmas and a Happy Hanukka. I'll be having a very quiet holiday
this year and will be thinking of those of you who will be doing the
same. |
| December 15, 2008 |
I'm taking a break from the pre-holiday festivities to get a little
philosophical. If you don't identify as a Domme or a sub, you may want
to skip this blog entry entirely. Domination and Submission I read a few things recently regarding D/s that I'd like to share with you. The terms "Dominant" and "submissive" mean different things to a lot of people. And it seems to me that many are quick to label themselves and take on the behavior they believe matches that label. But to others, it's quite easy to read as an obvious charade. Submissives who "Top from the bottom" and Dominants who believe that rudeness and bitchiness should be respected are everywhere. And personally, I find both types to be offensive. So this is why the following makes so much sense to me. Submissive? An acquaintance "mutilato" believes the following, and I agree: All submissives have at least one of these qualities:
And "tami" pointed out the following words from J. Mikael Togneri as a way of defining a Dominant: THE SEVEN PILLARS
In short, to use an archaic phrase, noblesse oblige. If a dominant is the center of a Submissive’s universe, it is because the submissive thinks so, not because the Dominant does. No one is respected, let alone obeyed, just coz. The truth of the matter is that owning is at least as much work as being owned. Seven pillars of life. Seven pillars of wisdom Thanks for reading ... I'm heading back into "bimbo mode" now. "Where's the eggnog?"
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| December 10, 2008 |
Since the gift giving season is upon us, I couldn't resist sharing this
with you. To those of you in a relationship, beware! haha. It's nearly
5 minutes long, but some lessons take that long to teach. |
| December 4, 2008 |
The holidays are approaching fast and it's time to get serious about
preparing. I'm giving a garterbelt and stockings to everyone on my list
this year. It's the gift that keeps on giving and you can
never have too many! And the guys on my list are getting them too. Oh sure, they'll pretend that it's a silly gift but alone and behind closed doors it might not be so silly. *giggles* And this year I'm not climbing down anyone's chimney. Squished boobies and ruined heels is all I have to show for it last year. And some wise guy left me cookies and milk with a note that said "for Bimbo Claus". Gimme a break! I was okay with the note, I really was, but milk? Now I've done a little forced lactation play in the past but warm milk in a glass? I don't think so. |
| December 3, 2008 |
I'm still chasing around for permission to publish a few photos from my
recent trip to Las Vegas. So rather than wait for permission from the
straggler, I thought I'd just remove her photo and publish the
rest. Sadly though, someone else is in that photo and doesn't get
included although she had already given me the okay (Sorry Spirit! ..
Some day I'd love to do a whole album with you, Rubber Doll.). Anyway .. some of the photos are mine. Some are from my friend Nicole. And some are from Gerry Koehler .. a very handsome guy and a very talented professional photographer from Los Angeles. Hope you enjoy the photos. You can find them here. |
| December 1, 2008 |
Well, it's time for some changes here. After a great deal of thought,
I've decided to remove the two pages on this site that get the lowest
number of hits each month. So my "Site Stats" page and my "Erotic
Fiction" page are gone. I'm not surprised that the "Site Stats" page wasn't exactly popular. Intriguing info to me but I really didn't expect you to wait anxiously for the first of every month for the newest stats to arrive *giggles* . But I must say, I'm surprised that the Erotic Fiction page wasn't a lot more popular. Maybe it was my fault for not getting the updates in there regularly .. not sure .. but it certainly wasn't due to the quality of the stories. Every single story managed to make my panties uncomfortably tight. :-) Soooo ... to Samantha and Red Dawn .. thank you both so much! If the day comes when I can think of a better way to package your awesome work, I hope you'll both consider helping me again. Now for some good news .. I hope. I'm going to take another kick at a message board. The new and improved version will have a look similar to my Guestbook and will require no complicated log in. On a personal note, life is great! I've been having a great time but it's been nothing I can tell you about here. Sorry! I'm almost ready for the holidays and have already starting keeping mistletoe in my panties. Kiss me baby!!!!! |
| November 27, 2008 |
Happy Thanksgiving to all my friends in the USA. Turkey, football,
family, the parade, stockings, heels .. it's what the day is all about.
*giggling* |
| November 7, 2008 |
Home again. Time to get unpacked, do some laundry and reflect on a
fabulous vacation. And unload the camera! Although I really should have taken more photos at the Fetish Ball, I'm a very discreet girl and just don't feel comfortable posting pics without the express consent of everyone in the shot. But regardless .. the excitement that I felt would most certainly have been lacking in the images. So I'll be answering your emails, both here and on the other sites, and starting to prepare more photo albums to appear here in the near future. It's also time to start thinking about shooting a new banner photo with a holiday theme to be used here on my site for the month of December. As much as I wanted to attend the Exotica event in Detroit this weekend, it looks like I'll have to miss this one :-( . I still haven't fully recovered from my vacation. But if you go to it, please send me an email and tell me all about it! And have a great time! |
| November 4, 2008 |
Having an amazing time in Arizona! The condo is great and the weather is
fabulous. I only saw a few clouds one morning and the temperature has
reached 90 degrees every day. The nights are quite comfortable .. latex
weather actually .. dropping down into the low 60's or high 50's. I was able to find the time to take a lot of photos for this website and spent some quality time with friends that included dinner at a fabulous restaurant. Thank you Mark and Sara! The people in AZ are quite environmentally considerate and do their best to make new  development
appear in tune with the surrounding desert. Yet for a high-end
restaurant and mega-dollar residential development, they had no problem
tunneling through a mountain to reach an pristine desert area only seen previously by
hikers and mountain climbers. Although the result was quite stunning, I
had mixed feelings about just how far they went to please the "rich and
famous". I know, "lighten up Seleena!".I looked at some real estate also ... not the kind that requires a drive through a mountain to get to .. but rather a relatively simple condo in a very nice complex in the foothills overlooking the city. Who knows? I may just end up spending most of my time there. But all good things must come to an end eventually, and it's time to return home to Canada. Hopefully the new corset that I ordered has arrived. My intention was to wear it in Las Vegas but the people at Nightshade kinda let me down. To all who have sent email to me or looked for me online, I've been reading all my email while away and will respond when I get home. |
| October 31, 2008 |
HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!!!!!!! |
| October 30, 2008 |
Las Vegas .. there really are few cities like it. Larger-than-life. A
monument to excess. My trip this time was as exciting as any in the past. Kim and I got to spend lots of time with My barbie. Barbie took great care of us, providing the wheels for getting around, as well as booze to keep us loose. She also prepared a fantastic dinner for us, that we enjoyed along with a rather expensive bottle of wine that barbie picked especially for that dinner. And like the good maid that she is, she made us an after dinner drink to enjoy while she cleaned up. Thank you barbie, for a wonderful time! We went to Lee Ann's birthday party on Friday night at the Wyndham and I finally got to meet her. A gorgeous women who didn't miss any opportunity to get out her flogger. Nicole Lashes had invited us to the party for her partner, and meeting her also was wonderful. She's even nicer in person than she is online. Hope to spend more time with her in the future. Also got to hang with Tricia, Spirit, Shavonna, Shock and Amber (more on Shavonna and Spirit in a future blog update). Fabulous people I'd love to see again, although I'm a little sad that I didn't get to spend more time with Tricia. We chat lots online and I would have liked to continue that chat in the flesh. I stayed in a wonderful condo just off the strip ...  very elegant and
very secure (just ask barbie about her experience with Mr. Chuckles, the
guard at the front gate *giggles*). And although we turned a
few heads in the lobby, everyone was very accepting. The Fetish & Fantasy Halloween Ball was incredible. A feast for the eyes and ears. The continuous stage performances were Vegas caliber, but with a BDSM edge. Dancers and acrobats were everywhere and a "flogging stage" had a continuous stream of Dom(mes) and subs demonstrating their own particular style. But the most incredible sights of all were in the crowd. Although a small number were in  Halloween costumes, the vast majority of the
crowd was in fet wear. Ultra-high heels, garters, corsets,
fishnets, latex and leather was everywhere. And the group was a
little younger than I expected. Gawd, it was fun .. and so erotic! My barbie and I got many requests to pose for pics ... she was on My leash .. and, yes, we obliged. Even 'Fucking Gerry", the fetish photographer, took a photo or two of us. If any of you should see us on another site, please drop me line so that we can check out the photos too. Although we were invited to the after-party, we were hurting from a long day and a little jet lag so we left the Ball and headed back to our condo. But even the cab ride was an laugh. Our cab driver was a kinky guy very much into BDSM. As soon as we got in his cab he said "I smell latex! Who's wearing latex?" (in case you hadn't guessed, it was me .. Kim and barbie were wearing PVC). Sunday was a day to relax a little and do some "barbie bondage", and the day soon ended with our sad goodbyes. Monday flights for all of us ... barbie was heading home and Kim and I were off to Arizona. That's where I am as I write this. But more on AZ later. |
| October 20, 2008 |
In a few days I'll be back in Las Vegas. It seems like it's been so
long, almost a year, since I've felt the excitement of the "City That
Never Sleeps". I hear the gaming floor calling my name. There's a birthday party to attend and a fetish ball too. And I get to see some friends again, and meet some that I've chatted with for years online but have never met. And from Las Vegas, I'm headed back to the desert in southern AZ. Again, I'll spend some time with friends and hope to meet another online friend or two. I had hoped to hook up with a photographer there to do some photos for this site but it doesn't look like it's gonna happen. As always, I'll continue to watch my email and do my regular website updates while I'm away. I may even do some web camming (on that kinky social networking site some of you also belong to) while away. If anything exciting happens .. and I'm sure it will .. I'll let you know all about it! And I'm sure there will be photos to share. |
| October 14, 2008 |
Well, ya just never know who looks at (and in this case, listens to)
your online stuff. I've had this little video on YouTube for the last
couple years. It's more of a slide show than a video really .. made up
of still images dissolving into each other, and put to music. As of
today, the video
has received over 56,000 views. I was informed today by YouTube that my video has been blocked because of a copyright infringement claim against the audio track by UMG. Although I was able to quickly replace the audio with a copyright-free song provided by YouTube, the video just isn't the same. The song in question was ''November Rain" .. one of my favorite songs. Was I wrong to use it? Absolutely .. and I sincerely apologize to GnR for doing that. I guess I thought of it more as a tribute to an awesome song. And it doesn't matter if they took exception with my use of the song because I'm a T-girl or not .. I apologize to the band, Universal Music Group and/or the song owner. And for the record, I still think Mr. Rose is kinda cute! |
| October 10, 2008 |
Now I'm starting to worry. I know you didn't come to this site to hear
more gloom and doom about what's going on with the world economy but
this is finally starting to scare me, and it may impact this website. I've booked and paid for a trip to the desert for later this month, and will certainly have a great time in both Las Vegas and southern Arizona, but if I had realized that things would get this bad, I really wouldn't have done this one. And for the first time, I'm seriously considering making this site into a pay site to help pay for the operating costs and to keep the wardrobe fresh. Anyone want to provide me with some high-level legal advice regarding this? Although the federal election here in Canada on the 14th should be inconsequential, the one in the US in November can cause the pendulum to swing so far in the other direction that it flies off into oblivion. Stop the insanity! If I'm going to have to start selling my cheap ass on street corners, I'm going to need lots of fishnets, and there are costs associated with that. *giggling* On a more positive note, I've just published a photo album that is a little more "personal" than the stuff I've been sharing. Hope you like it .. and as always, your feedback is appreciated. |
| September 30, 2008 |
Wow .. the financial world may be falling apart but the fetish events
just keep happening. In addition to the events I mentioned below, Northbound Leather is holding it's big annual event at The Docks in Toronto on 10/25. If it didn't conflict with my Las Vegas plans, I'd be there. But in case you can attend, check it out here: Xposé Also "CAPITOL PUNISHMENT: The Inaugural Washington DC Fetish Ball" is happening on October 12th .. Columbus Day weekend in the US or Thanksgiving weekend here in Canada. One of the producers of this event is Nicotine .. a gorgeous fetish model that I'm familiar with from one of the BDSM community websites I belong to. And ... a large fetish event is happening in Detroit MI on November 7th-9th and is hosted by Tim Woodward Chief Editor of Skin Two Magazine. Check out Exotica I really missed the boat on the pre-planning this year, but am already updating my 2009 calendar. |
 And lastly, my friends at The Simpsons and Burger King seem to think this is what I should look like .. and frankly, I'm flattered! *giggles* |
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| September 24, 2008 |
Flights are booked and rooms are reserved for the Fetish & Fantasy
Halloween Ball in Las Vegas. My barbie will be joining Kim and I, and we
hope to meet up with Nicole, Lee Ann and Tricia there. Now I just have
to decide what to wear! I'm thinking that latex would be appropriate. Do
you agree? hehe Photo gallery update: I've been doing photos at a frenzied pace lately and have lots of albums to share with you in the upcoming weeks. Although I'd love to share them all with you right now, I'll continue adding a new album every Friday. As always, your comments are appreciated. |
| September 10, 2008 |
Well, fall is approaching fast and it's time to start thinking about
doing some travelling. Here are a few things I'm thinking about
attending during what's left of 2008. Fall Harvest in Kansas City: http://fallharvest.org/ My friend Renica is one of the organizers of an event that I expect will be totally awesome. Las Vegas for Halloween: Insanity on the strip. Wow! http://www.halloweenball.com/event08.shtml Sable's get-together in Dallas: Sable and aisling are putting together a great opportunity for the people from Alt to get together. Included is a night in the dungeon. Saturday, Nov 29, 2008 in Dallas, TX. Alt people can find details here: TS/TV Munches |
| September 3, 2008 |
Happy Birthday seleenak.com!! This website is one year old today!
In the last year, it's grown from nothing to something small and insignificant ... hahaha! But it's grown, and continues to grow, and I'm happy with the progress. Oh sure, I had visions of something bigger and more popular by this time but reality showed me that nothing comes easy. There are just so many sites out there that offer more than mine does. You see, this site falls into a category that only appeals to a small segment of the surfing public. She-male sites, with cocks and boobies everywhere, attract the "show me it all and show me now" group. And the advice-based groups have their own market. The strictly-bondage sites cater to specific interests and are quite popular too. And other personal sites feature girls who are younger and much prettier than me. It seems that I offer slightly higher quality images and a flare for style that might be a little above the average, but that's about it. Would I have done anything differently in hindsight? Not really but I had hoped that by now the site would have found a narrower scope based on the kind of stuff I enjoy doing and the feedback I get. But my interests haven't become focused and the feedback has been light. I worry sometimes that I appear arrogant, and the all-about-me thing is something I struggle with. Since this site really is all about me, it's hard not to come across this way ... but please know it's a little out of character for me being the center of attention .. even on my own website. I've tried some things here that have worked, and tried some things that haven't worked .. and I learned lots and continue to learn .. to learn a little about me and a little about you. Soooo ... are there changes planned for the next year? Yes. Not sure what they are yet, but things will likely change. Will this become a pay site? Possibly, but the free content you see today will not decrease. The small-ish mouse-over pics would continue here although larger, hi-resolution, easily savable photos might be available for a small subscription fee. Will it become a "leg site", featuring mostly just stockings, heels, feet? Maybe. Will it become more x-rated? Possibly, but not likely. Will it vanish completely? That's possible too. But I look forward to whatever the next year brings, whatever that may be. In closing, thank you so much for helping me to keep this thing alive. At this time in my life, it's quite important to me and whether you get some dressing tips from my images or a sexual thrill from them, I'm so glad you keep coming back. *kisses* Seleena |
| August 12, 2008 |
Well .. I'm back to doing weekly updates to my Photo Gallery again! I
just published one, have three "in the can" and have ideas for many
others. In a couple of the photo sets I'm wearing something more formal;
in the third I'm wearing latex. My friend Michaela has moved to Buenos Aries. Many of you knew her as "Hailleigh", formerly of Toronto. We correspond regularly and she seems to be adjusting to the new culture. And the culture that she describes is quite different. It sounds quite scary to me but Michaela has a lot more courage than I do. I wish her well, and know she'll succeed there but I can't help but worry about her. |
| August 6, 2008 |
Whiney Bimbo Rant Maybe it's the "dog days of summer". Maybe it's the next step in my evolution. Maybe I've been looking in the wrong places. Maybe it's my new-found freedom (I have a lot more available time now). Maybe it's the difficult July gone by. But my motivation and creativity are at a low point. Thank gawd for Kim. She's always been the most consistent, most supportive force in my life. I know I'm motivated by commitment. When I worked, I was committed to my job, my company, and I think I did well. And I was looking for this project, this little website, to take it's place. It has, and it's hasn't. One thing I learned about doing this site .... I'm doing it alone. Although I find it exciting, that excitement is hard to maintain when everyone else seems indifferent. I know, if I'm not doing it for myself I shouldn't be doing it at all. And maybe that's the harsh reality. So I need to dig down to find something in here that "turns my crank". Something that keeps me going. It may be time for some changes. I've been thinking long and hard lately about my chatroom .. the one here on this site. It may have outlived it's usefulness. I dunno. The message board that I scrapped several months ago. I've learned a lot about website building in the last year and could now come up with something that's much more user-friendly. Maybe it needs to come back. I dunno. Business. The commitment and excitement I might feel when I'm providing a service could be all the motivation I need. A pay site? Merchandise sales? Photog services? I dunno, but rest assured that if I venture into this area, I'll be totally professional. Hmmm .. excitement! Maybe that's it. I'm beginning to feel that if I don't generate some soon ... well, you know. My site is coming up on it's one year anniversary in a couple weeks and I've gone from an average of 6 hits per day in the first month to just under 150 hits per day now, and I've had over 17,000 people enter via my main page. Okay, but not great. Please know that I'm aware I'm behind on my Photo Gallery updates, but I've shot quite a bit yet don't feel that I've done anything worthy of being here. So .. change the site or change my attitude regarding it. Something's needs to change. I owe it to you .. and to myself. |
| July 24, 2008 |
Social networking rant Well, I've done it again .. even though I promised myself that I wouldn't. I've joined yet another social networking website. Not that many years ago, girls like me felt alone .. as though they were the only one's with this passion. Contact magazines and adult bookstores provided the only opportunity to meet others, and it wasn't pretty. Then along came computers and telecommunications, and everything changed. Bulletin boards and IRC chat quickly illustrated that there are others like us out there. And they weren't all the stereotypical "SheMales" with the gigantic implants and huge cocks. Feelings of optimism and excitement sweep over us. Phone line connections gave us the opportunity to connect to others but the time necessary for modems to connect and slow download speeds meant we had to stop and think about where we were going before we went there. The high speed connection and the Internet emerged. And we then had the ability to perv more websites in a minute that we could in an entire evening. And everyone's fingers was trying to find our purses, try to squeeze money from us. Social networking sites, sites where people of similar interests can share and socialize, began to spring up .. and the number of them out there continues to grow, even today. The dust hasn't settled yet, and no winners have been declared in the race to be THE networking site. So much for the "history according to Bimbo". I have my hands full. I have a Yahoo360 presence I'd like to put to sleep (except that it brings a fair amount of traffic to this website), a URNA profile I look in on every month of so, a YouTube video account, a Facebook profile for my male side, an Alt dot com membership (that has given me the most real life contacts as well as my very best, and very worst, chatroom experiences), and Instant Messaging profiles on both MSN and Yahoo. I still belong to several Yahoo "special interest" groups but always fall behind on their posts. I've also turned down numerous requests to "Join Me" on countless other sites. And I have this website ... photo gallery updates, bi-weekly chat and this blog. It's the thing I'm most committed to right now. So therein lies my dilemma. I've joined another one. So now there's one more online community for me to neglect. And I hate that ... because I've always done my very best to be attentive to those who I'm connected to. At one time it felt overwhelming but now it just saddens me. I'm really not like this! When someone speaks to me, I answer! I expect FetLife to be yet another place where I have to keep fending off requests to meet at the drop of a hat. But who knows ... just maybe it'll be the "special one". After all, a very interesting guy suggested it to me. So, please bear with me, but until I figure out where I really need to be, I'm keeping a presence in too many places for my own good. Rant mode is now off |
| July 20, 2008 |
Wow! What a crazy few weeks it's been. An emotional rollercoaster. And I finally got to meet Tonya. She lives in the city and met up
with us at our hotel. I've always enjoyed her posts in Sarah Lynn's
"Powder Room" on Alt dot com, and finally meeting her was very cool. My darling Kim had the awesome idea of a limo tour of the city so our friends from out of town could see a little more than just the Pride district so she made the arrangements, and with financial support from My barbie, around 10 of us spent a couple hours in a stretch SUV limousine. We stopped a few times for photos and smoke breaks at various locations mostly around the waterfront. Thankfully I was already familiar with the areas we visited because at one point I was distracted by someone's hand under my skirt (Winnie, you little slut! You're the best!)
Click on the photo above to see all of our Toronto pics.
A Visit From Our Friends from the Desert Just had enough time back at home after Pride to unpack, straighten up the house, restock the refrigerator and booze cooler before heading to the airport to pick up our friends. We had as awesome time with them as we always do and look forward to seeing them again in a couple short months.
Someone Special Someone very important to me passed away. Although I already miss her lots, I'll eventually move on and the great memories will last forever. Rest in Peace, sweetie.
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| July 8, 2008 |
"you don't know what you've got 'til it's gone"
Joni Mitchell, 1970 |
| June 5, 2008 |
Well, I've decided to start updating my blog again. Not sure why.
Maybe it's therapeutic to some degree to put thoughts down in print.
Maybe it's just another place to vent or to share excitement. I don't
know but I'm giving it another try. And I'm not doing this for feedback .. I've given up on that! I've wrestled with the reasons behind the lack of feedback I get. A comment or two every couple weeks seems disproportionate to the number of visitors I get. In fact, even those closest to me rarely provide feedback or comments. "The handwriting is on the wall, Seleena!" The fun, maybe even the thrill, in doing this was to try to understand and maybe even see into the hearts and souls of the faceless people who visit. But I now understand that you won't permit that. You're more of a mystery to me than I am to you, and it looks like you're going to remain that way. So I'm moving forward without you *giggles* So there! |
| Jan 4, 2008 |
Wow .. Anne Stonebrook signed my Guestbook today. Imagine that! My
website!! I'm truly honored. She's my favorite fet/bondage model of all
time, and although no longer in the business, I believe her work is
already considered "classic" and will live forever. Got to meet her back
in the fall and I immediately fell head over heels for the person behind
the persona. I've accumulated a little collection of latexwear (and
those delicious ballet boots) from her in the last year or two. I think
I need to post an album of this stuff in my Photo Gallery. But I really don't do justice to anything she's worn .. except maybe for the little "bulge" that is uniquely mine. :-) Do you suppose Anne would object to a small "tribute" album on my little website? |
| Dec 31, 2007 |
Happy New Year!! Well at the suggestion of some, I've been rather quiet
in updating this blog ("Seleena, if you don't have something relevant to
say, it might be better to say nothing!") but as 2007 draws to a close,
I feel compelled to say a few words. First off, 2007 has been a slightly trying year. I've struggled just a bit to find my place in the world, and the creations of this website is part of that search. Thank gawd my sweetheart is here with me, and together we move forward. On a personal level, I spent too much doing things that are not important to me and too little time doing the things that are. The all-consuming 9 to 5 made it difficult sometimes to be the spouse, the friend and the lover that I desire to be. I lost an old friend, and nearly lost another ... but I got to meet new friends too! I was honored to meet Angel, buffy, hailleigh, Jade, Ross, bunny, Winnie, Sarah, Alicia, Dita, chelle and Delila, and I feel a connection to all of them that only someone in this lifestyle can feel. I also met "My barbie"! :-) Got to spend some time with dearest friends (and serious hottie's) Sara and Mark, although 3 visits in a year is not nearly enough. :-( In 2008, my free time increases dramatically. It's a journey that Kim and I have worked so hard for. We expect to travel a bit more, get our lives organized and into a bit of a routine that allows us to be as impulsive as the situation dictates *giggles*. But regardless of who's doing what between our legs, she's all that's important to me. I plan some changes to this website. The message board experiment was a failure and will be removed, my chatroom availability will increase, I'll install proper Photo Gallery software to save wear and tear on your "back" button and will try to include some dialog with each photo album explaining the situation or my feelings when the photos were taken. I'd love to expand my Friends page .. not many volunteers to date (thank you barbie and Stephanie!) and to do this I might have to solicit. I'd love to include some female content here too (any volunteers?). I'm still coming to grips with the lack of input I receive about the site and it's content. But I'll move forward, for the most part, on my own and let the hits count gauge my success. Thank you everyone for keeping this site alive. It's important to me to think that my URL is bookmarked on a few computers and the occasional mouse click here puts a smile on someone's face. Happy New Year! May 2008 be a safe and prosperous year for you, and may it bring you all the kinkiness you desire! *kisses* Seleena |
| Nov 23, 2007 |
I recently received a couple photo requests. Look for some "by request"
albums to appear here soon. Thanks "D"! *hugs* |
| Nov 5, 2007 |
Hmmm .. let's talk about the future, the future of this website.
Although my friends have been very helpful and very supportive, the
feedback I've been getting outside my circle of friends has been very
light. So although I'm having fun here, I'm really now sure how I'm
doing in your eyes. But I fully realize that if this site was really
really exciting, more would be compelled to comment. So, I'll continue
to use my own judgment .. at least for now. Both the chatroom and message board are very under utilized and I'm wondering if there might be technical issues for some people that prevent them from participating. Time will tell but I'm renaming "Seleena's Private Chatroom" to "Seleena's Chatroom", just in case the word "Private" is making the room seem off limits to anyone. I'm also thinking of asking a few others to contribute to my "Friends" page. Barbie's getting lonely there all by her self :) Am I impatient? You know it! |
| Oct 14, 2007 |
Decided that my current pattern of regular blog entries are likely of
little interest to most and likely sound much too "self serving"..
So I'm scaling back here and will not post blog entries unless there's
something worthwhile to post. |
| Oct 13, 2007 |
My Hooters uniform arrived on Thursday and it's time to take some photos
today. I wasn't sure if I could pull off the look, and am still not after seeing the pics, but I guess they'll appear here anyway. Thought that the look needed a nametag so I went to the computer and quickly made one up. I ended up wearing it all day .. webcam on Alt dot com, stuff around the house, photos. And I found the knee high 5 1/2" heel boots to be quite comfortable after 15 hours of wear. |
| Oct 9,2007 |
I spent some incredible time chatting online with Barbie and Ross ..
mmmm! And I exchanged email with Alexis Tyrell. It would be so awesome
if she would contribute a photo to my "Friends" page (you know which
photo I'm thinking of, don't ya hon?). I'm learning that the life of a "web bimbo" is challenging, In many things that we do in life, there is some kind of feedback. No so in this world. My daily hits are up and down like a yo-yo and my feedback is nearly non-existent. So I have no real idea how I'm doing. I guess I should stop thinking about this and just go with the flow .. albeit a flow I have to create myself. A commitment to add a new photo album or video each week might be a start. And a wide variety of content might also be wise. Different flavors of wardrobe, Domme pics, subbie pics, bondage. I really hope I don't have to start showing my .. well, you know .. to start getting a reaction! But seriously, I understand my content is very light at this point and am committed to increase it regularly. Please don' t give up on me. |
| Oct 8, 2007 |
Happy Thanksgiving to my Canadian friends. We all do have a lot to be
thankful for .. regardless of who you choose to thank. Although the number of hits on this site is improving steadily, few people are signing my guest book and my requests for feedback have pretty much gone unanswered. I'd much rather hear bad feedback than no feedback at all. So I'll have to think of ways to engage people .. or maybe just lessen my expectation. Maybe a poll would be easier .. you know, I ask a direct question and you click "yes", click "no", "select A B or C". Or maybe it's too early to be thinking about this. |
| Oct 7, 2007 |
I got scurrying around the house this morning and missed the 10:00 start
of my bi-weekly chatroom time. If you came here at 10:00 and found no
chatroom, please accept my apologies. It was 10:06 before it came to
life. Luckily for me, my two fav sweeties, Barbie and QQ patiently
waited and appeared just as soon as I did. I'm not gonna kiss and tell, but whew! The discussion was soooo erotic. I notice that lots of hits on this site are coming from my friends at "Trannies in Trouble" http://tranniesintrouble.com/ via a reciprocal link to Sandra's site. I hope I'm not disappointing the bondage fans from there. Since I'm a huge bondage fan too, I think I should mention that clearly on my "Welcome" page as well my "About Me". Sounds like it's time to add some bondage photo content too. Today's outfit: ruby pushup bra, Hanes Alive tan (somewhat shiny) pantyhose (panties? what panties?), animal print sleeveless top, stretch black mini, animal print 5 1/2" heel ankle strap pumps. |
| Oct 6, 2007 |
I got to chat briefly with my Australian friend Angie in the GX chatroom
on Alt dot com. It's been a long time .. so glad to hear, and see, that
she's okay. She told me she had viewed this website. I'm a little
nervous about that because Angie has great taste and knows quality ...
and I'm not sure what I've done so far measures up. But she politely
told me she loved it .. and I'll believe her, out of necessity. Maybe
she'll have some suggestions for improvement. I turned my webcam a couple times later in the day. The weather here has been unusually warm, nearly hot, and the temperature inside to too warm to appear on cam fully dressed .. lol .. so I appeared in only a strapless bra, corset, thong, FF stockings and thigh-high boots. Not exactly my usual elegant cam-wear but I got no complaints *giggles* Then proceeded to turn the air condition back on. |
| Oct 3, 2007 |
I tried my best to make it happen, but it looks like
Kim and I will not
be able to attend the Northbound Leather "Switch" event on Oct 20th.
This is the big one .. a not-to-be-missed event (
http://www.northbound.com/english/index.taf ). I broke the news to
our friend hailleigh tonight but, as expected, the slutty girl was very
understanding. I haven't seen hailleigh since Toronto Pride way back in June, and the time we spent together then was quite limited. But things will improve in the near future. I told her about my website and asked her to critique it. But it would be fab if she decides some day to contribute to the "Guests" page. Getting this site moving is slower than I had expected (damned search engine robots!). I went to my chatroom here tonight at 7:00 and got no visitors at all .. but my sweetheart Kim dropped by for a few minutes to keep me company. |
| Sept 30, 2007 |
well, the search engines can now index my site; hope it's ready for
prime time! I had my first real (unprovoked) visitor in my chatroom today. "QQ", thanks for stopping by to chat with me. You're a sweetie! Spend an hour or so on webcam in the chatroom of my favorite Alternative Lifestyle site. Emotions and attitudes are running high there. |
| Sept 29, 2007 |
I'm trying to decide when to go live with this website. I'm currently
preventing the search engines from indexing the site and the visitors to
date are only those I've told about the site .. those I consider
friends. Although I've asked for feedback, I'm not getting too much
(thanks Ross for telling me like it is!) |
| Sept 28, 2007 |
It's my friend BarbieGirls's birthday! She just turned 39 years
old again. Although I wasn't able to help her celebrate it in person
(3,000 miles separates us), Nicole and I gave her a somewhat severe
birthday spanking in the Gender Exchange chatroom at Alt dot com. Hope
she's able to sit comfortably this morning. *giggles* |
| Sept 27, 2007 |
Picked up my favorite heels at the shoe repair shop. Very nice job and
quite inexpensive. Actually, I just realized that I'm wearing those very
same heels in the banner photo above. The new heel tips are only
slightly thicker than the original one and I'm blown away at how much of
a difference it makes in the wearability .. but when you're always
pushing the limited of heel height, a little means a lot. I'll spend
several hours in them this weekend to ensure I don't need to move them
to the "bedroom only" closet. |
| Sept 26, 2007 |
I won an eBay auction today for a black "Hooters" uniform. Black top,
black shorts, typical Hooters "Tamara" pantyhose, white slouch socks. On
the advice of the seller, I bought size "small" .. yikes, this might be
a bit extreme but we'll see how it goes. Although wearing running shoes
with it might be fun, typically T-girls like me can't wear running shoes
and maintain the right balance. The effect of high heels is to
lessen the distance between the tips of the toes and the heels (the
higher the heel, the more pronounced the effect is) thereby making the
foot appear smaller .. more "lady-like. Running shoes don't do this, so
since I'll likely wear heels with the uniform, a black uniform seemed
best. A photo album will appear here somewhere down the road. |
| Sept 24, 2007 |
Kim found a local shoe repair shop! Dropped off my favorite heels
this afternoon. Although these heels are pretty extreme, he never batted
an eye. Pickup on Thursday. |
| Sept 21, 2007 |
Put on a slinky wet-look red dress, black pantyhose and open-toe strappy
black shoe (with chrome stiletto heels) and spent a few hours on webcam
in the chatroom at Alt dot com. Had fun but stayed up too late, and had
to deal with a guy who was starting to become a little obsessive. I'm
always on the watch for behavior that seems unusual. It might just have
been a vigorous display of affection but you can never be too careful.
|
| Sept 20, 2007 |
Chatted with my friend hailleigh about an upcoming event in Toronto on
Oct 20th. Northbound Leather's biggest annual party is called "Switch"
this year. I need to decide soon if it's possible to attend. The thought
of "double-dating" with hailleigh and her lover is sooo appealing. And
the party will surely be awesome .. very elaborate, very fetishy, starts
at 9:00pm and ends at 6:00am .. only in Toronto! |
| Sept 17, 2007 |
Back to work ...yuk! |
| Sept 14, 2007 |
While unpacking for the AZ trip, I again noticed that the folks at the
airport (TSA) have again went through my girlie stuff. Everything
rearranged and my precious photo of my bondage model friend was a bit
crinkled. Damn. I have to wonder what the TSA people think when they
open a suitcase like mine. sheesh. On close inspection I notice that the tip on my favorite pumps (black patent, 6" heels from "Tony Shoes") didn't survive the trip. Does anybody repair shoes these days? |
| Sept 13, 2007 |
After tearful goodbyes at the airport, got on the plane to return home |
| Sept 12, 2007 |
Visited Mount Lemon AZ .. very picturesque and a refreshing change from
the 100°+ temperatures down in the city |
| Sept 10, 2007 |
Drove out to Casa Grande in the morning to meet a retired fetish/bondage
model who I've been buying lots of clothes from recently. She's even
more gorgeous now than when she worked in the industry and is just the
sweetest woman. When you see gorgeous people in videos you always wonder
about their character and the size of their egos. She was a refreshing
surprise .. truly a classy lady. I understand how life takes us
all in different directions and have total respect for her decision to
leave the industry, but it's a great loss nonetheless. Then it was "Photo Time". Did several photo sets with Mark, "photographer extraordinaire". I'm thrilled with the results and will be posting a few teasers here soon. Thank you Mark .. you're a sweetie! Then spent a few hours watching the girls on webcam on the Alternative Lifestyle website we frequent. T-girls like me get a bit of attention on webcam there but there's nothing like "the real deal". They had hundreds of viewers and got lots of great compliments. |
| Sept 8, 2007 |
It's vacation time! My "love of my life" and I left for Arizona
to
spend several days with our best friends. After a long day spent in the
air and waiting around airports, we arrived safe and sound to a gorgeous
day. |
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again, it felt like a freak show .. and we were the
freaks. *giggles* But ce la vie! There was no disrespect towards
us at all, and many friendly comments .. .especially from women. Maybe
it's time I change my look in an attempt to "pass" ... nawwwww! In my
opinion, there's nothing I, or many of my "sisters", could do to come
close to appearing like an attractive woman. And presenting as the
average "today's woman" is just not something that interests me.
I'm sure most
TV/CD's can relate to this although most TS's (pre-op, post-op or
non-op) would strongly disagree. I just prefer times when women never
left the house without hosiery and makeup ... regardless of the time of
day or season. Sandals and bare feet were left for the beach ..
and glamorous was what you were or, at least, tried to be, and not something
you occasionally "did". I guess it's obvious that for some of us, it's
all about the dressing. 
