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| February 4, 2010 |
I got a warning earlier this week from nice people at
Y! that I "might have" violated their Terms of Service, and
that I need to stop immediately or my account might be
terminated. They gave no other detail but included a helpful link
to a help forum. But the link is broken .. "page not found". Sooo there might not be a help forum available to help me understand what I might have done ... but whatever it might be, I need to stop it immediately or they might terminate my account. Well Y! .. to be honest with you, I might not care at all if you did that. I haven't done anything different there recently. Same behaviour as in the last several years; no abusive language, no porn, no confrontations, no "hate" talk, no threats. I'd have a hard time doing those things if I tried to. My volume there has been quite high recently ... "add me" requests, messages, etc .. but that's about it. And my profile is as honest as it can be. I don't even lie about my gender there, like so many of my "sisters" do. But in researching this very ambiguous warning, I learned that many bloggers and business people are of the opinion that the "Big Y!" has a thing for the guy runs the US. You know the guy. "Hopey-changey guy" .. (not to be confused with "hunky guy" from NY, who really is intelligent, handsome, sexy and honest .. inside joke <swoon!>). Simply disagreeing with "el presidente"" in their groups, forums, chatrooms (maybe even email and IM's?) is grounds for termination. Hard to believe, I know, but that's what many are saying. And the funniest part of it all is that it was okay to disagree (or worse) with that "W" guy; just not with the new kid. So the "conservative" regime was more liberal than the liberal one turned out to be! Who knew? Maybe my chances of getting invited to the Republican National Convention are not so far-fetched after all? Yahoo! oooops .. I meant woohoo! |
| January 17, 2010 |
My friend <wink, wink> Shelby sent me this and I just
had to share it with you.  Be careful at the airport, girls. Always remember to "tuck"! haha! |
| January 6, 2010 |
Okay .. I told myself I would never do this but I've
deleted a blog entry. My "Happy New Year! Would you like
fries with that?" entry was apparently more negative than it was
intended to be and has caused some concern with those who read this.
I'm sorry! I thought about rewriting it .. paying more attention to how it could be perceived but decided that sometimes things are better left unsaid .. and my personal situation and feelings are one of those things. Please forgive me for breaking the number one rule for bloggers .. I'll be more careful in the future. |
| January 3, 2010 |
Happy New Year! Would you like fries
with that? <entry deleted> |
| December 31, 2009 |
2009 is drawing to a close. And what a year
it's been. The terrorists have succeeded even further in changing the way we all live. The "hopey changey" guy running the US has done nothing positive at all and has alienated allies, shown weakness to the bad guys and has spilt the country more than any of his predecessors. Terrorist attacks are on the rise. The economy is still in shambles. Political correctness is digging the hole even deeper. Checkbook journalism and partisan coverage is tainting the news we see and read. And the future looks anything but rosy for so many right now. On the bright side, maybe this is an adjustment we all need. But opinions are like penises .. everybody has one (don't they? teehee!) and my opinion on world affairs is definitely not the reason you come to my site. The New Year resolution I made at the beginning of this year was a horrible failure. I'm no closer to walking gracefully in ballet heels than I was in January so I'll make a different type of resolution this time around. I resolve to smile more! Simple, huh? I hope it is. People in my life come and go, and as hard as that can be at times, I resolve to cherish the moments as they happen instead of mostly cherishing the memories. Yes, cherish the moments as they happen! Joni Mitchell once sang "you don't know what you've got 'til it's gone" .. there's much wisdom in that single line. And Seleena K once said "if we were supposed to cherish things that are behind us, we'd all be able to smile with our butts". Not nearly as wise as Joni's line but you know where I'm coming from. Although Kim will always be the most important person in my life .. my one and only .. I really hope to also share a smile with you in the coming year. Happy New Year! Y |
| December 24, 2009 |
Happy Holidays!! I know some of you spend this
time of year with family and friends and some spend it alone.
Regardless of your situation, I wish you the best of the season. |
| December 14, 2009 |
An Exciting Couple of Weeks Although pics (still photos) have always been my thing, I've always been intrigued by video. Many have told me that seeing movement .. body language .. seems lots more intimate than still photos. So based on these comments, and my own curiosity, I decided it was time to upgrade my rather inexpensive video camera. And what better way to get familiar with it than to do a video for my site. Please check it out in my Video Gallery. Although I'm not that thrilled with my appearance in this one, I like the quality of the picture (even after YouTube's compression) and am proud of the job I did behind the camera .. lighting, editing, sound, music, etc. Hopefully the look and feel of my "story" is a little more "professional" and interesting than much of what you see out there. Comments are appreciated! On another topic ... in an attempt to provide you with some exciting "out and about" photos I've been searching for a photographer to help me out. Although I have nothing concrete to report just yet, I've made a couple contacts that are very promising. With their help, I hope to be able to add some interesting photos here in the coming days and months. The weather here is getting cold and the snow will be here soon, so I might get off to a slow start with this but it's coming. Since I obviously can't pay someone to do photos of me for my free website, finding a reciprocal arrangement is very important to me. Offers to "help you out" are wonderful and greatly appreciated but I just can't be benefiting from someone's good nature over the long term. So .. I'm really hoping that one of my new contacts can benefit from some of my abilities (not that, you perv!) in exchange. And lastly ... Dina Paige! OMG! I finally got to meet her and made a new friend in the process. Dina owns a service based in Toronto that's exactly what girls like us need in our lives. She's a Transgender Self Improvement Professional and is here to help us with everything from make-up to lifestyle coaching to photography sessions to referrals and references. 
Dina's a gorgeous girl with a sweet personality, has been through all of the "issues" most of us are dealing with and has emerged a winner .. rock solid, successful, happy and with an energy and zest for life that's contagious. I'll be working with her to find ways that I can help promote her services. Stay tuned, but for now, please check out her website. Please don't be fooled by Dina's glamorous look here (my choice of photos, not hers :-) . She really is one of the most approachable people you'll ever meet, and whether you're a casual weekend dresser or have begun living 24/7 as a female, Dina understands and is here to help. Sit beside her, look into her eyes, hear her words, and her commitment to your happiness will become obvious. Girls, please don't go through the expense and frustration of time-consuming trial and error, like I did, in an attempt to get your look (and your act) together. A few smart dollars spent up front can save you lots of time, money and frustration in the long term. You owe it to yourself to allow the world to see beauty that's inside you. You'll be surprised at the positive energy you receive in return. Do I sound excited? I am! .. and no, I'm not getting a sales commission. hehe! |
| November 16, 2009 |
Gifts for Moi? In an attempt to generate some excitement here I've decided that I should start accepting gifts. Over the last two years there have been quite a few offers to send me small gifts in appreciation for my continuing effort to keep this free website going. Although I was honoured by each and every offer, I felt the need to decline. I guess I was worried about having others guide my direction in some small way. But in declining as I did, I missed out on some wonderful opportunities to interact with those of you who value this thing I do. No, I'm not expecting truckloads of expensive clothing, heels, lingerie and jewels to appear at my door regularly. But a trickle of small tokens of your appreciation might help me keep moving forward. I've also decided that I would start considering your requests to buy some of my personal items and photos. I think some of you would like to wear the clothing you've seen in my photos and some would simply like to have them because it helps personify what you read and see here. So gifts? Send them. Would you like to send me something to wear in photos and return to you immediately afterwards? Let's talk. Want worn panties or stockings sent to you in a ziplock bag? Please let me know. Photo prints? Sure. I'm also looking at doing a calendar, creating wallpaper for your computer screen and DVD slide shows of my photos in high resolution. Not only will it help me to get a little closer to you, in all honesty it excites me to think that you're touching, caressing and smelling things that were once mine. It makes my panties wet! And to raise the gift incentive a little, those who send something this way will have the option of getting on my mailing list for at least the next year. An email from me at the first of every month including a high res large photo picked from those added to my Photo Gallery that month. Repeat gift givers (two or more gifts in the same calendar year) will also have the option of receiving a personalized Christmas and Valentines Day card from me via snail mail. Just let me know your discretion requirements and I'll do my best to make it work for you. If you don't feel inclined to send gifts in these tough economic times, I totally understand. Please keep coming back and comment when you feel inclined to do so. I really want to be more to you than just an occasional mouse click. Help me to do this for you .. and for me! (Please see my Gifts page for details.) |
| November 08, 2009 |
A Day of Remembrance -
Wednesday November 11th Okay, it's time to put away the stockings and heels for a moment and talk about something important. Really important. On Wednesday, 11/11 at 11 minutes after 11 o'clock we, in Canada, like so many other places in the world, will observe a moment of silence in memory of those who gave up their lives in combat for our freedom. In preparation for this event, me and most other Canadians have been wearing a poppy on our lapels. .. left side, over the heart. The poppy is a symbol of remembrance in my country and many other allied countries who contributed troops to the war effort in World War 1. Poppies grew in abundance in Flanders Fields, a battlefield-turned-burial ground that spanned an area from southern Belgium to north west France. I ask you to please take a few minutes to watch the very poignant Canadian video below to honour those who made the ultimate sacrifice so bimbo's like me can have the freedom to be who we are, regardless how controversial. Please watch it ...... for me. It's important. |
| October 29, 2009 |
Fashion versus Fetish As an observer of fashion over the years, I've come to a conclusion. Sure, this may be a well-known fact to others but for me, it's a new concept .. and the implications are scary. I've come to the conclusion that today's fashion in tomorrow's fetish. This is likely common knowledge to many but a revelation to me. I'm not sure if this can be an all-encompassing statement about human behaviour and sexual perversity but we, as pervy humans, tend to fetishize things that had a sexual impact on our development, often at a very young age. Guys and T-girls seem most likely to acquire a life long fetish but it certainly happens to women too. The dictionary defines a fetish as a sexual attraction to an inanimate object. Although I certainly shouldn't question Webster, that definition conjures up images of a lonely perv whacking to a pair of women's panties that mysteriously moved from her laundry basket to his at the laundromat. My definition is somewhat looser than that. I tend to think of a fetish as an attraction to anything that consistently conjures up feelings of eroticism in an individual, that is not already part of the male or female anatomy. Seamed stockings and high heels are a common fetish. Big red clown noses are a little less common <grins>. And fetishes are best appeased only occasionally, to allow us all to get on with life. Let's face it, if your fetish was big red clown noses and everyone on the street wore them, you wouldn't get a lot done. Therein lies the sadness to my observation, and you just know this is leading to a discussion of legs since I'm obviously a leg girl. It seems that when seamed stockings were everyday wear for most women, little emphasis was placed on them sexually .. that came later. When spandex leggings, tights and slacks went out of style (thank god), an increased sexual interest in "all things spandex" started to appear. And now that pantyhose are vanishing from everyday life, the pantyhose fetish crowd is growing .. and I can personally make this observation because I'm seeing an increasing number of requests for pantyhose pics on my site. Even Lady Gaga is careful to show the reinforced part of her pantyhose on stage to leave no doubt that she's wearing them. So, where does that leave us going forward? Bare legs, in my opinion, don't qualify as a fetish since they're part of the anatomy. Does the casual comfort-based look women have chosen leave the next generation of fetishists with a choice of cotton sweats, denim or microfiber? And regarding women's footwear .. flip flops, track shoes, fluffy slippers? Maybe schoolgirl skirts and knee-high socks will continue their popularity but the symbolism of that outfit is .. well, you know .. a little twisted when the admirer is older and might be more about role-play than fetish. So I'm calling on the fine hosiery manufacturers of the world .. Hanes, Wolford, etc .. to do something .. anything .. to revive their industry. If not in the interest of corporate profits, think of the next generation of fetishy pervs. Cuz if a marketing response to the downward trend doesn't happen soon from you, I'm going to start wearing a big red clown nose. |
| October 27, 2009 |
Friendship Today I'm going to talk about friendship. Something I'm feeling a little short on these days. I've always been a very private person; someone who would rather have a few very close friends than a hundred casual friends. It's always been that way for me. But I never realized how important friendship was to my own peace of mind until recently. Having a close friend can be hard work but pays huge dividends, both to the heart and to the head. And although privacy is something that might very well reduce complication and drama, it isolates. I've worked so hard to maintain my privacy, both for myself and to protect those close to me, (especially as it relates to my gender bending activities) and I've been quite successful, only letting a very few to get close. But when you put all your "friendship eggs" in the one basket, things can change .. and they have. I lost someone close to me to an evil disease, a friendship or two faded when my work situation changed, another was lost when my feelings of friendship were met with something I perceived as infatuation and a little closeness was lost with another due to ... well ... I'm not really sure. And now I find myself in a situation where the close friendships has vanished. Due to my perceived need for privacy, I've been distant when many have reached out to me; partly because I was worried they would invade my space at an inopportune time, partly to avoid potential drama, and partly because I felt that having sex with me was their only motive. So my suggestion to all my "sisters in heels" out there, please try to keep some balance between your privacy and your social life, and please consider that when life gets a little bumpy, a "guy in a skirt" might be there for you to hold your hand. |
| October 9, 2009 |
A happy day here for a couple reasons. First, I've come the realization that I have a chance to win the Noble Peace Prize next year. I thought that guys who dress like chicks were insane. The Noble Committee has us all beat. And secondly, Thanksgiving is Monday up here in Canada. Happy Turkey Day to all my friends in Canada. |
| October 3, 2009 |
For the past couple of months, I've been following
Jessica-Who on Twitter. I believe Jessica found me
there, and as always, I checked out her tweets to see if a reciprocal
"follow" was in order. Wow, was I impressed! Twitter is used by many to bring attention to their "other" initiatives and this is the case with Jessica. Her tweets are always fun and include the latest TG happenings from the news and entertainment world but the excitement starts at her linked website. Jessica-Who.com is a very professional, great looking, informative, entertaining blog site centered around all things transgendered. It's written with personality and compassion, and is updated often. Not all topics will apply to everyone but I honestly believe that you'll enjoy most everything there. Jessica's married and quite young by (ahem) my standards (I won't tell you what she said upon learning of my employment status .. lol) and brings a fresh outlook to many of the life experiences we've all been through in the early stages of our transgendered "careers", albeit many years ago. I've chosen an email subscription but there are other ways to follow Jessica, if email isn't your style. Please check her out! Jessica-Who.com . I've also added her banner to the "Fav's" area of my "Links, Favs and Thank You's" page. |
| September 24, 2009 |
Here is yet another example of crossdressing in the
mainstream. Actually this commercial follows two trends. The "stupid
white guy" trend as well as the crossdressing trend. All this mainstream treatment of "this thing we do" has got me thinking about a new career opportunity. So as of this minute, I'm making myself available for TV commercial appearances, complete with the bulge! Do the annual advertising awards ceremonies (the ADDY's or CLIO's, I think) have a red carpet? I always thought it would be cool to get out of a limo, all leggy, and walk the red carpet to the sound of camera motor drives. On second thought, maybe I should just make a trip to the carpet remnant store and buy my own. |
| September 23, 2009 |
Autumn is here. Soon my world will change from
green and lush to crisp and golden .. and then on to something that
looks post-nuclear warfare. Gawd, I hate leafless trees and an overcast
sky. Oh well .. I've put the white clothes away until next year (as if I have many white things .. lol) and have bought an awesome pair of leather gloves to keep my hand warm on those cold evenings, in case you're not here to keep me warm. Here's a little commercial I thought I'd share with you. Some of you can relate to this :-o |
| September 20, 2009 |
Here's a cool music video I thought I'd share with you. I
just luv the expressions on the guy's faces! Haha .. pretty cool, huh? *giggling* |
| September 19, 2009 |
Just after midnight last night, my little
seleenak.com place in cyber space reached the 50,000 visitor plateau.
With so many other sites out there .. gorgeous T-girls, and even more beautiful female sites with similar content, I'm proud and honoured to receive a little bit of your surfing time. Thank you everyone for keeping my dream alive! |
| September 12, 2009 |
I just had to share this with you. Stiletto Sprint
racing for charity! Only in Canada? :-) http://cosmos.bcst.yahoo.com/up/player/popup/index.php?cl=15509286 |
| September 4, 2009 |
Happy Birthday ... to ... me, I guess. SeleenaK dot
com turns 2 years old today. The last couple years have been interesting, to say the least. A big learning experience for me as I continue to do what I like doing while trying to measure your reaction to it. Sometimes your comments are an indication and other times I go to the page hits for insight. I was expecting that I would have found a clear direction for this site by now but this is not the case. So until that light goes on, I'll just continue having fun. I think my images have improved since I started doing this and I'm grateful for that. I've met some very nice people and received travel and gift offers. I've justified a bit more photog equipment yet I stilll struggle justifying the expense of video gear even though my "Just Legs" video has been a huge success, at least by my standards, on YouTube. I experimented with a message board, erotic stories and a site stats page, and my chatroom has been up, down and back up again. What does the next year have in store for you and I? Likely more of the same but I'll be making an effort to do more pics outside the relative safety of a controlled lighting environment, although I'm aware it may increase interest at the expense of image quality. Thank you to all of you who visit here .. some regularly and some rarely. Especially those of you who take the time to comment. I put myself out there into the big pie, and only hope to get a little slice for myself. Stay tuned! *kisses* Seleena |
| August 11, 2009 |
I've decided to revive my chatroom. I'll be there
faithfully during the specific hours mentioned on the page and whenever
possible outside those hours. Please drop by to say "Hi" if you have the
opportunity. It's usually pretty quiet in there so it can be a good
opportunity to chat one-on-one. |
| August 9, 2009 |
I've added a link to my friend Nicolle's web store on
my Stuff page. Nicolle is a hard
working girl who goes to great lengths to bring you the things you
want, in the sizes you need and at the best possible price. Please take a minute to check out Genie - The Crossdress Store. She carries all of the essentials as well as tons of fun stuff. She really is "giving special girls an alternative". Nicolle is also organizing a very special weekend event. "An Alluring Affair" is happening on November 6-8 2009 at the very luxurious Deerhurst Resort here in Ontario. In case you're not familiar with Deerhurst, it truly is one of the finest resorts in Ontario and will be the venue for the 2010 G-8 world leader summit. The event is all-inclusive (I believe cocktails and spa treatments are the only things not included, but please check the event page to be sure) and is a wonderful opportunity for those who never get out, as well as those who get out frequently, to enjoy a weekend of fun and pampering in a non-judgemental environment. The facility is top-notch, the staff are wonderful and the food ... OMG! The event page can be found here. I have a busy schedule at that time this year but am working hard to clear those days. I really want to attend this one as a special treat to myself. If you're planning to attend, and can commit in the near future, please email me here to let me know. I'd love to party with you there! You deserve this! |
| July 29, 2009 |
Okay, so
Elle Magazine here in Canada just came out
with an article on their Fashionism website entitled "8 Must-Have
Lingerie Items" Here's what they had to say: Must-have lingerie Sexy pieces every woman should have in her lingerie drawer. If you want your lingerie to sizzle all year 'round -- turn up the heat with some super-salicious pieces. ELLE Canada visited hot lingerie shop, Avec Plaisir, in Toronto, where sexy celebs like Mariah Carey and Catherine Zeta Jones head for their unmentionables. We chat with owner Vasilia on how to build the perfect lingerie wardrobe. Demi-lace bra For those low-cut items that give just a glimpse of décolletage, you need something that's flirty and stands out. Bustier Bra A bustier gives you lift and sex appeal. "It's perfect for under a jacket," says Vasilia, "or any item where you want to show something off. La Perla makes some beautiful ones." Well-fitted corset No ladies, corsets aren't just reserved for the 18th century or weddings. Corsets cinch the waist and enhance curves, plus, due to modern technological advancements, you can actually breathe in them. Long Gown A flowing knit gown is a no-fuss approach to sleepwear but still exudes a sex kitten look. "Comfort and sexiness is what all women want," explains Vasilia. Baby Doll Innocent and va-va-voom at the same time, a lacy black baby doll will bring out the inner romantic in you. "It's so comfy and playful," says Vasilia. "and oh-so-flirty." Strapless Bra Set A must! It's the turn-to bra in the summer or for that perfect cocktail dress and every woman needs one. "Getting the whole set, complete with flirty panties and sexy garter makes it extra special," explains Vasilia, "especially if only you know they are under there!" French-seamed stockings The best way to describe a pair of well-made French-seamed hose -- sultry. Vasilia insists it's "a must-have." Bonus: The seam up the back is like a magnet for a guy's eye. Fish net stay-ups A slick pair of fish net hose never goes out of style and nothing gives more definition to your legs. "It's worth investing in high-end stockings," says Vasilia, "they complete your outfit and make you look very polished. Opt for a pair from Wolford, they're worth the investment!" For more information, please check out www.avecplasir.com or call: 416-922-7702. if you'd like to see that article, click here. I'm bringing this to your attention for a couple reasons. First off, it would appear that corsets, seamed stockings and fishnets are becoming more and more mainstream. Good? I think so. But what's left for those of us who dress on the edge? Latex to the PTA meeting? And what's all this about comfort? It's not important to all of us. Remember what "Fernando" on SNL used to say (with his sexy Spanish accent) .. "Darlings, it's better to rook good than to feel good!" And secondly, I did notice there were two things on the list that I don't even own. And not surprisingly, they're the two most mainstream items on the list, in my opinion. A baby doll and a long night gown. Sooooo .. if mainstream girls are gonna start wearing the stuff that are staples in my wardrobe, I'm going to start wearing their things! Anyone want to send me a baby doll or a long gown? I really don't want to freak the ladies out when I strut my tranny self into the type of lingerie store that specializes in them. I promise to wear them for you and will do a photo album or two for my site. *giggling*
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| July 20, 2009 |
I thought I'd share this with you. Some of you will
understand this intimately, and hopefully agree! A guy is walking the strip in Las Vegas and a fantastic-looking Vegas hooker catches his eye. He strikes up a conversation and eventually asks the hooker, "How much do you charge?" The Hooker replies, It starts at $500 for a hand-job." The guy says, "$500 dollars! For a hand-job! Holy crap! No hand-job is worth that kind of money!" The hooker says, "Do you see that Denny's on the corner?" "Yes." "Do you see the Denny's about a block further down?" "Yes." "And beyond that, do you see that third Denny's?" "Yes." "Well," says the hooker, smiling invitingly, "I own those. And I own them because I give a hand-job that's worth $500." So the guy says, "What the hell? You only live once. I'll give it a try." They retire to a nearby motel. A short time later, the guy is sitting on the bed realizing that he has just experienced the hand-job of a lifetime, worth every bit of $500. He is so amazed he says, "I suppose a blow-job is $1,000?" The hooker replies, "$1,500." "I wouldn't pay that for a blow-job!" The hooker replies, "Step over here to the window, big boy. Do you see that casino just across the street? I own that casino outright. And I own it because I give a blow-job that's worth every cent of $1,500." The guy, basking in the afterglow of that terrific hand-job, decides to put off the new car for another year or so and says, "Sign me up." Ten minutes later, he is sitting on the bed more amazed than before. He can scarcely believe it but he feels he truly got his money's worth. He decides to dip into the retirement savings for one glorious and unforgettable experience. He asks the hooker, "How much for some pussy?" The hooker says, "Come over here to the window, I want to show you something.. Do you see how the whole city of Las Vegas is laid out before us: All those beautiful lights, gambling palaces, and shows?" " Damn!" the guy says, in awe, "You own the whole city?" "No," the hooker replies, "but I would... if I had a pussy." Thought you might like that .. especially if you visit sites like mine :-) But where do I find guys like that? Back-to-back O's and he's looking for more? |
| July 19, 2009 |
I think I'm switching frequent flyer programs! This
directly from the CEO at "another" airline at a recent press conference.
Very cool. Sure beats a bag of peanuts! Wonder if I can get a job with
them? |
| July 6, 2009 |
Well after a short but necessary hiatus I'm back. My
apologies to those who emailed me or came by to look for updates during
my absence. If this was a pay site I would have honoured my obligations
and continued the weekly updates but since it isn't, I got to put things
aside for a while with a clear conscience. So, look for new photos on a weekly basis and even a new video or two. And again, your feedback is always appreciated. My service agreement with my hosting service expires soon so your words will help motivate me to renew. Oh sure, there are younger, sexier gurls out there and many who like to lose their panties for the camera, but I'm hotter ... in a sick and twisted way .. and best of all, I'm free! Stay tuned. |
| May 29, 2009 |
I have a couple exciting things to share with you!
For a long time I've been considering buying high heels from an online store called "6 Inch Heels Forever" but have been a little concerned about buying directly from China and frankly I find their website a little difficult to navigate. Their heels are quite extreme, very unique and absolutely gorgeous, in my opinion. Well, I recently learned that they have opened a retail store in Toronto!!! I am sooo there .. but it might take a couple weeks to get there. I'm interested in learning how "walkable" some of their extreme arch styles are. After I go shopping I'll be sure to add a photo album or two here for those of you who are as into heels as I am. And if anyone is looking for a gift for me, please consider something from these guys. A little pricey, but I'm worth it .. or not .. *giggling* Now, I rarely endorse anyone here on my site but I have to tell you about someone I met recently who I think the world needs to know about. Vanessa Thompson is an extremely talented song writer, is drop-dead gorgeous and has the voice of an angel. She gave me permission to mention her here. Please check out her website and her videos on YouTube. And while you're there, spend a dollar or two to download her music. Who knows, if we're all really nice to her, she might just let me post her photo on my "Friends" page. Vanessa, I wish you all the best in your career. |
| April 19, 2009 |
You know how I love the heat. Well finally, it's
getting hot here in the southwest. It's going from unseasonably cool to
unseasonable warm in about 48 hours. The 60's are leaving and the 100's
are coming! And better still .. the night time temperatures will not be
dropping below 60. That's more like it. Soooo .. it's not like I don't spend enough time each day responding to electronic messages. I'm making things even more complicated. Alt dot com, MySpace, Yahoo, Yahoo Groups and Yahoo360, Windows Live, YouTube, URNotAlone, FetLife .. and now Twitter. Some wise person once said that it's better to so a few things really well than do a million things poorly but I just can't resist. I guess I continue in search of the one social networking world that works for me. But when I reflect on this, I realize that this public thing ... fitting in, feeling comfortable ... is still very elusive to me. Within my primary relationship, things are fabulous as always. so I'm really in a happy stage of my life. But when I try to exist outside of that, things get very hazy and somewhat difficult very quickly. Sooooo .. in a nutshell, here's where I am. Struggling, as always, to find my public place. Making photos for you and for me, and maintaining a website with no direction. Is Twitter my "silver bullet"? I'm sure it is not. But if it's good for Ashton Kutcher, it must be good for me .. haha!. He's just attained the lofty goal of 1 million followers on Twitter .. the first person to get there. I'm hoping for a hundred, and a tiny, yet comfortable, place in the world outside my private life. We'll see. |
| April 10, 2009 |
Ahhhh ... the warmth of the desert sun! After many
days on the road, I arrived on April 1st. Sunny, warm,
cloudless skies.
me in the desert I just got settled in time for my barbie to arrive from the Pacific northwest. We had a great time and I look forward to getting together with her again. So now it's relaxation, a little southern AZ exploration and hopefully a side trip to SoCal to hang with old friends, maybe meet some new ones and check out the club scene there. Oh .. and I look forward to doing more photos for this website and maybe even a video. Does it get any better than this??? |
| March 25, 2009 |
I'm on the road! After a long and cold winter
at home, I decided it was time to get away for a while. And a road
trip to the southwest US seemed just the thing to do. Visit some friends
along the way ... find some new locations for photos .. make a few
dollars at truck stops along the interstate! :-) So I'm off .. but will continue to update the Photo Gallery on my website as I always do. Wish me luck! |
| March 5, 2009 |
Time for a little fun. As requested by my friends on
Alt dot com, I'm posting a link to
"The Titty Test".
Try your luck and see how high you score. I got 16 .. surely you
can beat me! And here's another. Can you tell the guys from the girls? I only scored 10 on this one. Sheesh! |
| January 23, 2009 |
Time to vent. Those that know me, know that I prefer to shop on eBay. I find that the power of "feedback" works very well in assuring reasonable service. I'm really not after any special "exceeded my expectations" service. But it's quite difficult to get advice when buying on eBay so sometimes I leave the relatively safety of that world and venture into the world of internet vendors. I've had some frustrations recently with that I'd like to share. First off, I bought a "high quality" corset from Nightshade Corsets back in October with the intention of wearing it to the Fetish Ball in Las Vegas. Based on the advice I got, I ended up with the wrong size (I know, I'm a tough fit). Graciously, the store offered to exchange it. I immediately (same day) returned the corset and paid for another one. When my return was received I was immediately credited for it's cost but a few critical days went by (with unanswered email expressing my willingness to pay extra for expedited shipping) and eventually I was told the replacement item was shipped. Of course, the corset arrived after I left for Las Vegas. Well now, after only a couple rather gentle wearings I've noticed that one of the steel bones is poking out of the bottom trim. I'll try to have it repaired but honestly, I've gotten better wear out of a relatively cheap $200 corset and this one was substantially more expensive. My other frustrations is regarding MAC Cosmetics online. For whatever reason, my emails to them keep going unanswered. Twice I've had to resend, only to get a "thanks for your patience" reply. The delays have caused me to miss the big annual online sale, and I was planning to spend a ton of money. I've been told that MAC is "friendly" to girls like me so I imagine the problems might just be procedural, but who knows. I'm sticking with Dermablend. Vent-mode off! |
| January 9, 2009 |
The new year is here, and really .. it's doesn't look or feel much
different than last year. But who knows what this year will bring. I hope you all took the time to make a New Year's resolution. (Is this a North American custom only?) Hopefully you haven't already made and broken yours. But if you haven't made one yet, maybe I can help. Try this ... resolve to do something this year that you've never done before. Maybe something you've only dreamed about, or fantasized about. Give yourself permission! Now I'm not suggesting you throw caution to the wind and do something that's potentially life-altering . Just something small but maybe something you never thought you'd have the courage to do. And whether it goes well or not so well, the feeling of excitement will remind you that life is as exciting as you make it. Me? My resolution involves hard work. I'm going to try to learn how to walk more gracefully in ballet heels! I don't expect to ever be able to wear them when I go to the shopping mall but being able to gracefully walk for short distances would be awesome. ---------- Now .. I'm starting to get a little worried. The US Inauguration is just a couple weeks away and my invitation still hasn't arrived. New dress and new shoes are ready, and my frequent flyer points are burning a hole in my purse. So someone .. help me out here! I promise to be a prefect lady and someone you'd be happy to be seen with. :-) Ohhhh .. it's not that I'm a fan of the guy who the big party is for ... on the contrary, actually. It just seems like it might be a good party for someone like me. Let's just see how liberal-minded those people really are! *kisses* Seleena PS .. and for those of you who are familiar with my circle of friends .. I recently got an email from my favorite Toronto girl who is now living in Argentina. Micheala is doing just fine and she's just as sweet as she always was. I think I need to ask her for a new photo to see what changes the South American lifestyle has inspired. It's always a pleasure to hear from her. |
| December 31, 2008 |
Well, another year is drawing to a close, and from everyone here at
seleenak.com (just kidding! there's only me here) I'd like to wish
you all the best for the coming year. May happiness and prosperity be with you each and every day! *kisses* Seleena |
| December 24, 2008 |
I'd like to take this opportunity to wish everyone a very Merry
Christmas and a Happy Hanukka. I'll be having a very quiet holiday
this year and will be thinking of those of you who will be doing the
same. |
| December 15, 2008 |
I'm taking a break from the pre-holiday festivities to get a little
philosophical. If you don't identify as a Domme or a sub, you may want
to skip this blog entry entirely. Domination and Submission I read a few things recently regarding D/s that I'd like to share with you. The terms "Dominant" and "submissive" mean different things to a lot of people. And it seems to me that many are quick to label themselves and take on the behavior they believe matches that label. But to others, it's quite easy to read as an obvious charade. Submissives who "Top from the bottom" and Dominants who believe that rudeness and bitchiness should be respected are everywhere. And personally, I find both types to be offensive. So this is why the following makes so much sense to me. Submissive? An acquaintance "mutilato" believes the following, and I agree: All submissives have at least one of these qualities:
And "tami" pointed out the following words from J. Mikael Togneri as a way of defining a Dominant: THE SEVEN PILLARS
In short, to use an archaic phrase, noblesse oblige. If a dominant is the center of a Submissive’s universe, it is because the submissive thinks so, not because the Dominant does. No one is respected, let alone obeyed, just coz. The truth of the matter is that owning is at least as much work as being owned. Seven pillars of life. Seven pillars of wisdom Thanks for reading ... I'm heading back into "bimbo mode" now. "Where's the eggnog?"
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| December 10, 2008 |
Since the gift giving season is upon us, I couldn't resist sharing this
with you. To those of you in a relationship, beware! haha. It's nearly
5 minutes long, but some lessons take that long to teach. |
| December 4, 2008 |
The holidays are approaching fast and it's time to get serious about
preparing. I'm giving a garterbelt and stockings to everyone on my list
this year. It's the gift that keeps on giving and you can
never have too many! And the guys on my list are getting them too. Oh sure, they'll pretend that it's a silly gift but alone and behind closed doors it might not be so silly. *giggles* And this year I'm not climbing down anyone's chimney. Squished boobies and ruined heels is all I have to show for it last year. And some wise guy left me cookies and milk with a note that said "for Bimbo Claus". Gimme a break! I was okay with the note, I really was, but milk? Now I've done a little forced lactation play in the past but warm milk in a glass? I don't think so. |
| December 3, 2008 |
I'm still chasing around for permission to publish a few photos from my
recent trip to Las Vegas. So rather than wait for permission from the
straggler, I thought I'd just remove her photo and publish the
rest. Sadly though, someone else is in that photo and doesn't get
included although she had already given me the okay (Sorry Spirit! ..
Some day I'd love to do a whole album with you, Rubber Doll.). Anyway .. some of the photos are mine. Some are from my friend Nicole. And some are from Gerry Koehler .. a very handsome guy and a very talented professional photographer from Los Angeles. Hope you enjoy the photos. You can find them here. |
| December 1, 2008 |
Well, it's time for some changes here. After a great deal of thought,
I've decided to remove the two pages on this site that get the lowest
number of hits each month. So my "Site Stats" page and my "Erotic
Fiction" page are gone. I'm not surprised that the "Site Stats" page wasn't exactly popular. Intriguing info to me but I really didn't expect you to wait anxiously for the first of every month for the newest stats to arrive *giggles* . But I must say, I'm surprised that the Erotic Fiction page wasn't a lot more popular. Maybe it was my fault for not getting the updates in there regularly .. not sure .. but it certainly wasn't due to the quality of the stories. Every single story managed to make my panties uncomfortably tight. :-) Soooo ... to Samantha and Red Dawn .. thank you both so much! If the day comes when I can think of a better way to package your awesome work, I hope you'll both consider helping me again. Now for some good news .. I hope. I'm going to take another kick at a message board. The new and improved version will have a look similar to my Guestbook and will require no complicated log in. On a personal note, life is great! I've been having a great time but it's been nothing I can tell you about here. Sorry! I'm almost ready for the holidays and have already starting keeping mistletoe in my panties. Kiss me baby!!!!! |
| November 27, 2008 |
Happy Thanksgiving to all my friends in the USA. Turkey, football,
family, the parade, stockings, heels .. it's what the day is all about.
*giggling* |
| November 7, 2008 |
Home again. Time to get unpacked, do some laundry and reflect on a
fabulous vacation. And unload the camera! Although I really should have taken more photos at the Fetish Ball, I'm a very discreet girl and just don't feel comfortable posting pics without the express consent of everyone in the shot. But regardless .. the excitement that I felt would most certainly have been lacking in the images. So I'll be answering your emails, both here and on the other sites, and starting to prepare more photo albums to appear here in the near future. It's also time to start thinking about shooting a new banner photo with a holiday theme to be used here on my site for the month of December. As much as I wanted to attend the Exotica event in Detroit this weekend, it looks like I'll have to miss this one :-( . I still haven't fully recovered from my vacation. But if you go to it, please send me an email and tell me all about it! And have a great time! |
| November 4, 2008 |
Having an amazing time in Arizona! The condo is great and the weather is
fabulous. I only saw a few clouds one morning and the temperature has
reached 90 degrees every day. The nights are quite comfortable .. latex
weather actually .. dropping down into the low 60's or high 50's. I was able to find the time to take a lot of photos for this website and spent some quality time with friends that included dinner at a fabulous restaurant. Thank you Mark and Sara! The people in AZ are quite environmentally considerate and do their best to make new  development
appear in tune with the surrounding desert. Yet for a high-end
restaurant and mega-dollar residential development, they had no problem
tunneling through a mountain to reach an pristine desert area only seen previously by
hikers and mountain climbers. Although the result was quite stunning, I
had mixed feelings about just how far they went to please the "rich and
famous". I know, "lighten up Seleena!".I looked at some real estate also ... not the kind that requires a drive through a mountain to get to .. but rather a relatively simple condo in a very nice complex in the foothills overlooking the city. Who knows? I may just end up spending most of my time there. But all good things must come to an end eventually, and it's time to return home to Canada. Hopefully the new corset that I ordered has arrived. My intention was to wear it in Las Vegas but the people at Nightshade kinda let me down. To all who have sent email to me or looked for me online, I've been reading all my email while away and will respond when I get home. |
| October 31, 2008 |
HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!!!!!!! |
| October 30, 2008 |
Las Vegas .. there really are few cities like it. Larger-than-life. A
monument to excess. My trip this time was as exciting as any in the past. Kim and I got to spend lots of time with My barbie. Barbie took great care of us, providing the wheels for getting around, as well as booze to keep us loose. She also prepared a fantastic dinner for us, that we enjoyed along with a rather expensive bottle of wine that barbie picked especially for that dinner. And like the good maid that she is, she made us an after dinner drink to enjoy while she cleaned up. Thank you barbie, for a wonderful time! We went to Lee Ann's birthday party on Friday night at the Wyndham and I finally got to meet her. A gorgeous women who didn't miss any opportunity to get out her flogger. Nicole Lashes had invited us to the party for her partner, and meeting her also was wonderful. She's even nicer in person than she is online. Hope to spend more time with her in the future. Also got to hang with Tricia, Spirit, Shavonna, Shock and Amber (more on Shavonna and Spirit in a future blog update). Fabulous people I'd love to see again, although I'm a little sad that I didn't get to spend more time with Tricia. We chat lots online and I would have liked to continue that chat in the flesh. I stayed in a wonderful condo just off the strip ...  very elegant and
very secure (just ask barbie about her experience with Mr. Chuckles, the
guard at the front gate *giggles*). And although we turned a
few heads in the lobby, everyone was very accepting. The Fetish & Fantasy Halloween Ball was incredible. A feast for the eyes and ears. The continuous stage performances were Vegas caliber, but with a BDSM edge. Dancers and acrobats were everywhere and a "flogging stage" had a continuous stream of Dom(mes) and subs demonstrating their own particular style. But the most incredible sights of all were in the crowd. Although a small number were in  Halloween costumes, the vast majority of the
crowd was in fet wear. Ultra-high heels, garters, corsets,
fishnets, latex and leather was everywhere. And the group was a
little younger than I expected. Gawd, it was fun .. and so erotic! My barbie and I got many requests to pose for pics ... she was on My leash .. and, yes, we obliged. Even 'Fucking Gerry", the fetish photographer, took a photo or two of us. If any of you should see us on another site, please drop me line so that we can check out the photos too. Although we were invited to the after-party, we were hurting from a long day and a little jet lag so we left the Ball and headed back to our condo. But even the cab ride was an laugh. Our cab driver was a kinky guy very much into BDSM. As soon as we got in his cab he said "I smell latex! Who's wearing latex?" (in case you hadn't guessed, it was me .. Kim and barbie were wearing PVC). Sunday was a day to relax a little and do some "barbie bondage", and the day soon ended with our sad goodbyes. Monday flights for all of us ... barbie was heading home and Kim and I were off to Arizona. That's where I am as I write this. But more on AZ later. |
| October 20, 2008 |
In a few days I'll be back in Las Vegas. It seems like it's been so
long, almost a year, since I've felt the excitement of the "City That
Never Sleeps". I hear the gaming floor calling my name. There's a birthday party to attend and a fetish ball too. And I get to see some friends again, and meet some that I've chatted with for years online but have never met. And from Las Vegas, I'm headed back to the desert in southern AZ. Again, I'll spend some time with friends and hope to meet another online friend or two. I had hoped to hook up with a photographer there to do some photos for this site but it doesn't look like it's gonna happen. As always, I'll continue to watch my email and do my regular website updates while I'm away. I may even do some web camming (on that kinky social networking site some of you also belong to) while away. If anything exciting happens .. and I'm sure it will .. I'll let you know all about it! And I'm sure there will be photos to share. |
| October 14, 2008 |
Well, ya just never know who looks at (and in this case, listens to)
your online stuff. I've had this little video on YouTube for the last
couple years. It's more of a slide show than a video really .. made up
of still images dissolving into each other, and put to music. As of
today, the video
has received over 56,000 views. I was informed today by YouTube that my video has been blocked because of a copyright infringement claim against the audio track by UMG. Although I was able to quickly replace the audio with a copyright-free song provided by YouTube, the video just isn't the same. The song in question was ''November Rain" .. one of my favorite songs. Was I wrong to use it? Absolutely .. and I sincerely apologize to GnR for doing that. I guess I thought of it more as a tribute to an awesome song. And it doesn't matter if they took exception with my use of the song because I'm a T-girl or not .. I apologize to the band, Universal Music Group and/or the song owner. And for the record, I still think Mr. Rose is kinda cute! |
| October 10, 2008 |
Now I'm starting to worry. I know you didn't come to this site to hear
more gloom and doom about what's going on with the world economy but
this is finally starting to scare me, and it may impact this website. I've booked and paid for a trip to the desert for later this month, and will certainly have a great time in both Las Vegas and southern Arizona, but if I had realized that things would get this bad, I really wouldn't have done this one. And for the first time, I'm seriously considering making this site into a pay site to help pay for the operating costs and to keep the wardrobe fresh. Anyone want to provide me with some high-level legal advice regarding this? Although the federal election here in Canada on the 14th should be inconsequential, the one in the US in November can cause the pendulum to swing so far in the other direction that it flies off into oblivion. Stop the insanity! If I'm going to have to start selling my cheap ass on street corners, I'm going to need lots of fishnets, and there are costs associated with that. *giggling* On a more positive note, I've just published a photo album that is a little more "personal" than the stuff I've been sharing. Hope you like it .. and as always, your feedback is appreciated. |
| September 30, 2008 |
Wow .. the financial world may be falling apart but the fetish events
just keep happening. In addition to the events I mentioned below, Northbound Leather is holding it's big annual event at The Docks in Toronto on 10/25. If it didn't conflict with my Las Vegas plans, I'd be there. But in case you can attend, check it out here: Xposé Also "CAPITOL PUNISHMENT: The Inaugural Washington DC Fetish Ball" is happening on October 12th .. Columbus Day weekend in the US or Thanksgiving weekend here in Canada. One of the producers of this event is Nicotine .. a gorgeous fetish model that I'm familiar with from one of the BDSM community websites I belong to. And ... a large fetish event is happening in Detroit MI on November 7th-9th and is hosted by Tim Woodward Chief Editor of Skin Two Magazine. Check out Exotica I really missed the boat on the pre-planning this year, but am already updating my 2009 calendar. |
 And lastly, my friends at The Simpsons and Burger King seem to think this is what I should look like .. and frankly, I'm flattered! *giggles* |
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| September 24, 2008 |
Flights are booked and rooms are reserved for the Fetish & Fantasy
Halloween Ball in Las Vegas. My barbie will be joining Kim and I, and we
hope to meet up with Nicole, Lee Ann and Tricia there. Now I just have
to decide what to wear! I'm thinking that latex would be appropriate. Do
you agree? hehe Photo gallery update: I've been doing photos at a frenzied pace lately and have lots of albums to share with you in the upcoming weeks. Although I'd love to share them all with you right now, I'll continue adding a new album every Friday. As always, your comments are appreciated. |
| September 10, 2008 |
Well, fall is approaching fast and it's time to start thinking about
doing some travelling. Here are a few things I'm thinking about
attending during what's left of 2008. Fall Harvest in Kansas City: http://fallharvest.org/ My friend Renica is one of the organizers of an event that I expect will be totally awesome. Las Vegas for Halloween: Insanity on the strip. Wow! http://www.halloweenball.com/event08.shtml Sable's get-together in Dallas: Sable and aisling are putting together a great opportunity for the people from Alt to get together. Included is a night in the dungeon. Saturday, Nov 29, 2008 in Dallas, TX. Alt people can find details here: TS/TV Munches |
| September 3, 2008 |
Happy Birthday seleenak.com!! This website is one year old today!
In the last year, it's grown from nothing to something small and insignificant ... hahaha! But it's grown, and continues to grow, and I'm happy with the progress. Oh sure, I had visions of something bigger and more popular by this time but reality showed me that nothing comes easy. There are just so many sites out there that offer more than mine does. You see, this site falls into a category that only appeals to a small segment of the surfing public. She-male sites, with cocks and boobies everywhere, attract the "show me it all and show me now" group. And the advice-based groups have their own market. The strictly-bondage sites cater to specific interests and are quite popular too. And other personal sites feature girls who are younger and much prettier than me. It seems that I offer slightly higher quality images and a flare for style that might be a little above the average, but that's about it. Would I have done anything differently in hindsight? Not really but I had hoped that by now the site would have found a narrower scope based on the kind of stuff I enjoy doing and the feedback I get. But my interests haven't become focused and the feedback has been light. I worry sometimes that I appear arrogant, and the all-about-me thing is something I struggle with. Since this site really is all about me, it's hard not to come across this way ... but please know it's a little out of character for me being the center of attention .. even on my own website. I've tried some things here that have worked, and tried some things that haven't worked .. and I learned lots and continue to learn .. to learn a little about me and a little about you. Soooo ... are there changes planned for the next year? Yes. Not sure what they are yet, but things will likely change. Will this become a pay site? Possibly, but the free content you see today will not decrease. The small-ish mouse-over pics would continue here although larger, hi-resolution, easily savable photos might be available for a small subscription fee. Will it become a "leg site", featuring mostly just stockings, heels, feet? Maybe. Will it become more x-rated? Possibly, but not likely. Will it vanish completely? That's possible too. But I look forward to whatever the next year brings, whatever that may be. In closing, thank you so much for helping me to keep this thing alive. At this time in my life, it's quite important to me and whether you get some dressing tips from my images or a sexual thrill from them, I'm so glad you keep coming back. *kisses* Seleena |
| August 12, 2008 |
Well .. I'm back to doing weekly updates to my Photo Gallery again! I
just published one, have three "in the can" and have ideas for many
others. In a couple of the photo sets I'm wearing something more formal;
in the third I'm wearing latex. My friend Michaela has moved to Buenos Aries. Many of you knew her as "Hailleigh", formerly of Toronto. We correspond regularly and she seems to be adjusting to the new culture. And the culture that she describes is quite different. It sounds quite scary to me but Michaela has a lot more courage than I do. I wish her well, and know she'll succeed there but I can't help but worry about her. |
| August 6, 2008 |
Whiney Bimbo Rant Maybe it's the "dog days of summer". Maybe it's the next step in my evolution. Maybe I've been looking in the wrong places. Maybe it's my new-found freedom (I have a lot more available time now). Maybe it's the difficult July gone by. But my motivation and creativity are at a low point. Thank gawd for Kim. She's always been the most consistent, most supportive force in my life. I know I'm motivated by commitment. When I worked, I was committed to my job, my company, and I think I did well. And I was looking for this project, this little website, to take it's place. It has, and it's hasn't. One thing I learned about doing this site .... I'm doing it alone. Although I find it exciting, that excitement is hard to maintain when everyone else seems indifferent. I know, if I'm not doing it for myself I shouldn't be doing it at all. And maybe that's the harsh reality. So I need to dig down to find something in here that "turns my crank". Something that keeps me going. It may be time for some changes. I've been thinking long and hard lately about my chatroom .. the one here on this site. It may have outlived it's usefulness. I dunno. The message board that I scrapped several months ago. I've learned a lot about website building in the last year and could now come up with something that's much more user-friendly. Maybe it needs to come back. I dunno. Business. The commitment and excitement I might feel when I'm providing a service could be all the motivation I need. A pay site? Merchandise sales? Photog services? I dunno, but rest assured that if I venture into this area, I'll be totally professional. Hmmm .. excitement! Maybe that's it. I'm beginning to feel that if I don't generate some soon ... well, you know. My site is coming up on it's one year anniversary in a couple weeks and I've gone from an average of 6 hits per day in the first month to just under 150 hits per day now, and I've had over 17,000 people enter via my main page. Okay, but not great. Please know that I'm aware I'm behind on my Photo Gallery updates, but I've shot quite a bit yet don't feel that I've done anything worthy of being here. So .. change the site or change my attitude regarding it. Something's needs to change. I owe it to you .. and to myself. |
| July 24, 2008 |
Social networking rant Well, I've done it again .. even though I promised myself that I wouldn't. I've joined yet another social networking website. Not that many years ago, girls like me felt alone .. as though they were the only one's with this passion. Contact magazines and adult bookstores provided the only opportunity to meet others, and it wasn't pretty. Then along came computers and telecommunications, and everything changed. Bulletin boards and IRC chat quickly illustrated that there are others like us out there. And they weren't all the stereotypical "SheMales" with the gigantic implants and huge cocks. Feelings of optimism and excitement sweep over us. Phone line connections gave us the opportunity to connect to others but the time necessary for modems to connect and slow download speeds meant we had to stop and think about where we were going before we went there. The high speed connection and the Internet emerged. And we then had the ability to perv more websites in a minute that we could in an entire evening. And everyone's fingers was trying to find our purses, try to squeeze money from us. Social networking sites, sites where people of similar interests can share and socialize, began to spring up .. and the number of them out there continues to grow, even today. The dust hasn't settled yet, and no winners have been declared in the race to be THE networking site. So much for the "history according to Bimbo". I have my hands full. I have a Yahoo360 presence I'd like to put to sleep (except that it brings a fair amount of traffic to this website), a URNA profile I look in on every month of so, a YouTube video account, a Facebook profile for my male side, an Alt dot com membership (that has given me the most real life contacts as well as my very best, and very worst, chatroom experiences), and Instant Messaging profiles on both MSN and Yahoo. I still belong to several Yahoo "special interest" groups but always fall behind on their posts. I've also turned down numerous requests to "Join Me" on countless other sites. And I have this website ... photo gallery updates, bi-weekly chat and this blog. It's the thing I'm most committed to right now. So therein lies my dilemma. I've joined another one. So now there's one more online community for me to neglect. And I hate that ... because I've always done my very best to be attentive to those who I'm connected to. At one time it felt overwhelming but now it just saddens me. I'm really not like this! When someone speaks to me, I answer! I expect FetLife to be yet another place where I have to keep fending off requests to meet at the drop of a hat. But who knows ... just maybe it'll be the "special one". After all, a very interesting guy suggested it to me. So, please bear with me, but until I figure out where I really need to be, I'm keeping a presence in too many places for my own good. Rant mode is now off |
| July 20, 2008 |
Wow! What a crazy few weeks it's been. An emotional rollercoaster. And I finally got to meet Tonya. She lives in the city and met up
with us at our hotel. I've always enjoyed her posts in Sarah Lynn's
"Powder Room" on Alt dot com, and finally meeting her was very cool. My darling Kim had the awesome idea of a limo tour of the city so our friends from out of town could see a little more than just the Pride district so she made the arrangements, and with financial support from My barbie, around 10 of us spent a couple hours in a stretch SUV limousine. We stopped a few times for photos and smoke breaks at various locations mostly around the waterfront. Thankfully I was already familiar with the areas we visited because at one point I was distracted by someone's hand under my skirt (Winnie, you little slut! You're the best!)
Click on the photo above to see all of our Toronto pics.
A Visit From Our Friends from the Desert Just had enough time back at home after Pride to unpack, straighten up the house, restock the refrigerator and booze cooler before heading to the airport to pick up our friends. We had as awesome time with them as we always do and look forward to seeing them again in a couple short months.
Someone Special Someone very important to me passed away. Although I already miss her lots, I'll eventually move on and the great memories will last forever. Rest in Peace, sweetie.
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| July 8, 2008 |
"you don't know what you've got 'til it's gone"
Joni Mitchell, 1970 |
| June 5, 2008 |
Well, I've decided to start updating my blog again. Not sure why.
Maybe it's therapeutic to some degree to put thoughts down in print.
Maybe it's just another place to vent or to share excitement. I don't
know but I'm giving it another try. And I'm not doing this for feedback .. I've given up on that! I've wrestled with the reasons behind the lack of feedback I get. A comment or two every couple weeks seems disproportionate to the number of visitors I get. In fact, even those closest to me rarely provide feedback or comments. "The handwriting is on the wall, Seleena!" The fun, maybe even the thrill, in doing this was to try to understand and maybe even see into the hearts and souls of the faceless people who visit. But I now understand that you won't permit that. You're more of a mystery to me than I am to you, and it looks like you're going to remain that way. So I'm moving forward without you *giggles* So there! |
| Jan 4, 2008 |
Wow .. Anne Stonebrook signed my Guestbook today. Imagine that! My
website!! I'm truly honored. She's my favorite fet/bondage model of all
time, and although no longer in the business, I believe her work is
already considered "classic" and will live forever. Got to meet her back
in the fall and I immediately fell head over heels for the person behind
the persona. I've accumulated a little collection of latexwear (and
those delicious ballet boots) from her in the last year or two. I think
I need to post an album of this stuff in my Photo Gallery. But I really don't do justice to anything she's worn .. except maybe for the little "bulge" that is uniquely mine. :-) Do you suppose Anne would object to a small "tribute" album on my little website? |
| Dec 31, 2007 |
Happy New Year!! Well at the suggestion of some, I've been rather quiet
in updating this blog ("Seleena, if you don't have something relevant to
say, it might be better to say nothing!") but as 2007 draws to a close,
I feel compelled to say a few words. First off, 2007 has been a slightly trying year. I've struggled just a bit to find my place in the world, and the creations of this website is part of that search. Thank gawd my sweetheart is here with me, and together we move forward. On a personal level, I spent too much doing things that are not important to me and too little time doing the things that are. The all-consuming 9 to 5 made it difficult sometimes to be the spouse, the friend and the lover that I desire to be. I lost an old friend, and nearly lost another ... but I got to meet new friends too! I was honored to meet Angel, buffy, hailleigh, Jade, Ross, bunny, Winnie, Sarah, Alicia, Dita, chelle and Delila, and I feel a connection to all of them that only someone in this lifestyle can feel. I also met "My barbie"! :-) Got to spend some time with dearest friends (and serious hottie's) Sara and Mark, although 3 visits in a year is not nearly enough. :-( In 2008, my free time increases dramatically. It's a journey that Kim and I have worked so hard for. We expect to travel a bit more, get our lives organized and into a bit of a routine that allows us to be as impulsive as the situation dictates *giggles*. But regardless of who's doing what between our legs, she's all that's important to me. I plan some changes to this website. The message board experiment was a failure and will be removed, my chatroom availability will increase, I'll install proper Photo Gallery software to save wear and tear on your "back" button and will try to include some dialog with each photo album explaining the situation or my feelings when the photos were taken. I'd love to expand my Friends page .. not many volunteers to date (thank you barbie and Stephanie!) and to do this I might have to solicit. I'd love to include some female content here too (any volunteers?). I'm still coming to grips with the lack of input I receive about the site and it's content. But I'll move forward, for the most part, on my own and let the hits count gauge my success. Thank you everyone for keeping this site alive. It's important to me to think that my URL is bookmarked on a few computers and the occasional mouse click here puts a smile on someone's face. Happy New Year! May 2008 be a safe and prosperous year for you, and may it bring you all the kinkiness you desire! *kisses* Seleena |
| Nov 23, 2007 |
I recently received a couple photo requests. Look for some "by request"
albums to appear here soon. Thanks "D"! *hugs* |
| Nov 5, 2007 |
Hmmm .. let's talk about the future, the future of this website.
Although my friends have been very helpful and very supportive, the
feedback I've been getting outside my circle of friends has been very
light. So although I'm having fun here, I'm really now sure how I'm
doing in your eyes. But I fully realize that if this site was really
really exciting, more would be compelled to comment. So, I'll continue
to use my own judgment .. at least for now. Both the chatroom and message board are very under utilized and I'm wondering if there might be technical issues for some people that prevent them from participating. Time will tell but I'm renaming "Seleena's Private Chatroom" to "Seleena's Chatroom", just in case the word "Private" is making the room seem off limits to anyone. I'm also thinking of asking a few others to contribute to my "Friends" page. Barbie's getting lonely there all by her self :) Am I impatient? You know it! |
| Oct 14, 2007 |
Decided that my current pattern of regular blog entries are likely of
little interest to most and likely sound much too "self serving"..
So I'm scaling back here and will not post blog entries unless there's
something worthwhile to post. |
| Oct 13, 2007 |
My Hooters uniform arrived on Thursday and it's time to take some photos
today. I wasn't sure if I could pull off the look, and am still not after seeing the pics, but I guess they'll appear here anyway. Thought that the look needed a nametag so I went to the computer and quickly made one up. I ended up wearing it all day .. webcam on Alt dot com, stuff around the house, photos. And I found the knee high 5 1/2" heel boots to be quite comfortable after 15 hours of wear. |
| Oct 9,2007 |
I spent some incredible time chatting online with Barbie and Ross ..
mmmm! And I exchanged email with Alexis Tyrell. It would be so awesome
if she would contribute a photo to my "Friends" page (you know which
photo I'm thinking of, don't ya hon?). I'm learning that the life of a "web bimbo" is challenging, In many things that we do in life, there is some kind of feedback. No so in this world. My daily hits are up and down like a yo-yo and my feedback is nearly non-existent. So I have no real idea how I'm doing. I guess I should stop thinking about this and just go with the flow .. albeit a flow I have to create myself. A commitment to add a new photo album or video each week might be a start. And a wide variety of content might also be wise. Different flavors of wardrobe, Domme pics, subbie pics, bondage. I really hope I don't have to start showing my .. well, you know .. to start getting a reaction! But seriously, I understand my content is very light at this point and am committed to increase it regularly. Please don' t give up on me. |
| Oct 8, 2007 |
Happy Thanksgiving to my Canadian friends. We all do have a lot to be
thankful for .. regardless of who you choose to thank. Although the number of hits on this site is improving steadily, few people are signing my guest book and my requests for feedback have pretty much gone unanswered. I'd much rather hear bad feedback than no feedback at all. So I'll have to think of ways to engage people .. or maybe just lessen my expectation. Maybe a poll would be easier .. you know, I ask a direct question and you click "yes", click "no", "select A B or C". Or maybe it's too early to be thinking about this. |
| Oct 7, 2007 |
I got scurrying around the house this morning and missed the 10:00 start
of my bi-weekly chatroom time. If you came here at 10:00 and found no
chatroom, please accept my apologies. It was 10:06 before it came to
life. Luckily for me, my two fav sweeties, Barbie and QQ patiently
waited and appeared just as soon as I did. I'm not gonna kiss and tell, but whew! The discussion was soooo erotic. I notice that lots of hits on this site are coming from my friends at "Trannies in Trouble" http://tranniesintrouble.com/ via a reciprocal link to Sandra's site. I hope I'm not disappointing the bondage fans from there. Since I'm a huge bondage fan too, I think I should mention that clearly on my "Welcome" page as well my "About Me". Sounds like it's time to add some bondage photo content too. Today's outfit: ruby pushup bra, Hanes Alive tan (somewhat shiny) pantyhose (panties? what panties?), animal print sleeveless top, stretch black mini, animal print 5 1/2" heel ankle strap pumps. |
| Oct 6, 2007 |
I got to chat briefly with my Australian friend Angie in the GX chatroom
on Alt dot com. It's been a long time .. so glad to hear, and see, that
she's okay. She told me she had viewed this website. I'm a little
nervous about that because Angie has great taste and knows quality ...
and I'm not sure what I've done so far measures up. But she politely
told me she loved it .. and I'll believe her, out of necessity. Maybe
she'll have some suggestions for improvement. I turned my webcam a couple times later in the day. The weather here has been unusually warm, nearly hot, and the temperature inside to too warm to appear on cam fully dressed .. lol .. so I appeared in only a strapless bra, corset, thong, FF stockings and thigh-high boots. Not exactly my usual elegant cam-wear but I got no complaints *giggles* Then proceeded to turn the air condition back on. |
| Oct 3, 2007 |
I tried my best to make it happen, but it looks like
Kim and I will not
be able to attend the Northbound Leather "Switch" event on Oct 20th.
This is the big one .. a not-to-be-missed event (
http://www.northbound.com/english/index.taf ). I broke the news to
our friend hailleigh tonight but, as expected, the slutty girl was very
understanding. I haven't seen hailleigh since Toronto Pride way back in June, and the time we spent together then was quite limited. But things will improve in the near future. I told her about my website and asked her to critique it. But it would be fab if she decides some day to contribute to the "Guests" page. Getting this site moving is slower than I had expected (damned search engine robots!). I went to my chatroom here tonight at 7:00 and got no visitors at all .. but my sweetheart Kim dropped by for a few minutes to keep me company. |
| Sept 30, 2007 |
well, the search engines can now index my site; hope it's ready for
prime time! I had my first real (unprovoked) visitor in my chatroom today. "QQ", thanks for stopping by to chat with me. You're a sweetie! Spend an hour or so on webcam in the chatroom of my favorite Alternative Lifestyle site. Emotions and attitudes are running high there. |
| Sept 29, 2007 |
I'm trying to decide when to go live with this website. I'm currently
preventing the search engines from indexing the site and the visitors to
date are only those I've told about the site .. those I consider
friends. Although I've asked for feedback, I'm not getting too much
(thanks Ross for telling me like it is!) |
| Sept 28, 2007 |
It's my friend BarbieGirls's birthday! She just turned 39 years
old again. Although I wasn't able to help her celebrate it in person
(3,000 miles separates us), Nicole and I gave her a somewhat severe
birthday spanking in the Gender Exchange chatroom at Alt dot com. Hope
she's able to sit comfortably this morning. *giggles* |
| Sept 27, 2007 |
Picked up my favorite heels at the shoe repair shop. Very nice job and
quite inexpensive. Actually, I just realized that I'm wearing those very
same heels in the banner photo above. The new heel tips are only
slightly thicker than the original one and I'm blown away at how much of
a difference it makes in the wearability .. but when you're always
pushing the limited of heel height, a little means a lot. I'll spend
several hours in them this weekend to ensure I don't need to move them
to the "bedroom only" closet. |
| Sept 26, 2007 |
I won an eBay auction today for a black "Hooters" uniform. Black top,
black shorts, typical Hooters "Tamara" pantyhose, white slouch socks. On
the advice of the seller, I bought size "small" .. yikes, this might be
a bit extreme but we'll see how it goes. Although wearing running shoes
with it might be fun, typically T-girls like me can't wear running shoes
and maintain the right balance. The effect of high heels is to
lessen the distance between the tips of the toes and the heels (the
higher the heel, the more pronounced the effect is) thereby making the
foot appear smaller .. more "lady-like. Running shoes don't do this, so
since I'll likely wear heels with the uniform, a black uniform seemed
best. A photo album will appear here somewhere down the road. |
| Sept 24, 2007 |
Kim found a local shoe repair shop! Dropped off my favorite heels
this afternoon. Although these heels are pretty extreme, he never batted
an eye. Pickup on Thursday. |
| Sept 21, 2007 |
Put on a slinky wet-look red dress, black pantyhose and open-toe strappy
black shoe (with chrome stiletto heels) and spent a few hours on webcam
in the chatroom at Alt dot com. Had fun but stayed up too late, and had
to deal with a guy who was starting to become a little obsessive. I'm
always on the watch for behavior that seems unusual. It might just have
been a vigorous display of affection but you can never be too careful.
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| Sept 20, 2007 |
Chatted with my friend hailleigh about an upcoming event in Toronto on
Oct 20th. Northbound Leather's biggest annual party is called "Switch"
this year. I need to decide soon if it's possible to attend. The thought
of "double-dating" with hailleigh and her lover is sooo appealing. And
the party will surely be awesome .. very elaborate, very fetishy, starts
at 9:00pm and ends at 6:00am .. only in Toronto! |
| Sept 17, 2007 |
Back to work ...yuk! |
| Sept 14, 2007 |
While unpacking for the AZ trip, I again noticed that the folks at the
airport (TSA) have again went through my girlie stuff. Everything
rearranged and my precious photo of my bondage model friend was a bit
crinkled. Damn. I have to wonder what the TSA people think when they
open a suitcase like mine. sheesh. On close inspection I notice that the tip on my favorite pumps (black patent, 6" heels from "Tony Shoes") didn't survive the trip. Does anybody repair shoes these days? |
| Sept 13, 2007 |
After tearful goodbyes at the airport, got on the plane to return home |
| Sept 12, 2007 |
Visited Mount Lemon AZ .. very picturesque and a refreshing change from
the 100°+ temperatures down in the city |
| Sept 10, 2007 |
Drove out to Casa Grande in the morning to meet a retired fetish/bondage
model who I've been buying lots of clothes from recently. She's even
more gorgeous now than when she worked in the industry and is just the
sweetest woman. When you see gorgeous people in videos you always wonder
about their character and the size of their egos. She was a refreshing
surprise .. truly a classy lady. I understand how life takes us
all in different directions and have total respect for her decision to
leave the industry, but it's a great loss nonetheless. Then it was "Photo Time". Did several photo sets with Mark, "photographer extraordinaire". I'm thrilled with the results and will be posting a few teasers here soon. Thank you Mark .. you're a sweetie! Then spent a few hours watching the girls on webcam on the Alternative Lifestyle website we frequent. T-girls like me get a bit of attention on webcam there but there's nothing like "the real deal". They had hundreds of viewers and got lots of great compliments. |
| Sept 8, 2007 |
It's vacation time! My "love of my life" and I left for Arizona
to
spend several days with our best friends. After a long day spent in the
air and waiting around airports, we arrived safe and sound to a gorgeous
day. |
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again, it felt like a freak show .. and we were the
freaks. *giggles* But ce la vie! There was no disrespect towards
us at all, and many friendly comments .. .especially from women. Maybe
it's time I change my look in an attempt to "pass" ... nawwwww! In my
opinion, there's nothing I, or many of my "sisters", could do to come
close to appearing like an attractive woman. And presenting as the
average "today's woman" is just not something that interests me.
I'm sure most
TV/CD's can relate to this although most TS's (pre-op, post-op or
non-op) would strongly disagree. I just prefer times when women never
left the house without hosiery and makeup ... regardless of the time of
day or season. Sandals and bare feet were left for the beach ..
and glamorous was what you were or, at least, tried to be, and not something
you occasionally "did". I guess it's obvious that for some of us, it's
all about the dressing. 
